I love this picture that I took of two friends who joined me for our play day in the snow. We were getting our Rocky Mountain high! It feels almost surreal which is exactly how life feels to me now. We are walking between worlds and some days this is easier than others. I have been receiving calls from friends and family who are struggling with this transition. They report feeling depressed, weepy, angry, apathetic, sad. A range of feelings that do not seem very pleasant. We are leaving our old way of life where we lived so much of the time, with our hearts tucked away in order to deal with the harshness, busyness and mundaneness of the “work to live” life. We all had our moments of joy and some did better than others in melding their working with their passion. For many that was not the case.
Now we are entering a time where our hearts are coming out of hiding, they want to be seen and felt 24 hours a day. This is causing clearing as all the painful emotions that came up in this life and many others, that have not been fully felt, are now demanding a hearing. They want to be expressed. It may mean that there is a river of tears waiting to flow or a tirade of anger. If you can get in observer mode and simply watch yourself feeling and expressing all that comes up, it lessens the sense of being out of control. It can be frightening to feel so much after years of keeping our hearts under wraps.
The beautiful aspect of this is that each time you fully feel an emotion, it clears the air and literally, you are able to breath easier. There is such a sense of freedom! We are being asked to do this clearing, think of it as your earth work. Mother Earth carries our weight and when we have unexpressed emotions, they are like heavy rocks upon her heart that she then must deal with. As I clear my heart space, I lighten her load and we are freer in our relationship. I am no longer the teenager throwing angry words at her with my unresolved feelings. (Those of you who have raised teenagers know exactly what I mean, the way the words can land like rocks in her heart). I am a mature adult who can enjoy my mother’s company with a newfound sense of delight in her wisdom and beauty! That feels grand, let me tell you.
The new earth energy is streaming in as light and love. As it enters our bodies, all that is not light and love, is pushed to the surface. The love is like a radar that picks up all the shadow substances that we hid, feeling that it was too awful, too shameful to be brought to the light of day. It is time now to embrace every part of who we are. We have been fed a lie that there was anything about us that was not beautiful. I can hear the protests, “Well, that part surely is not pretty, or my God, I stole something…surely that is shameful. Or I purposely took advantage of someone for my own gain.” It matters not what we have done, it is time to love that part of ourselves and let it go. Each of us was doing the very best that we could at the moment. Feel the power of that sentence. Surely you can feel this for those you love as you forgive them lapses in judgment. Now feel that same compassion for yourself. We were as conscious as we could be and acted on what we knew and with the skills that we had at that moment.
That does not mean that we will not desire to make amends. Our hearts open and of course we want to reach out to anyone that we have wronged or hurt in any way. That is part of our beauty……we are love and we want to express that love to all. Our hearts rush to right wrongs and express the love that flows through us.
So, do not fear this in between world space. Before you know it, we will all walk around with our hearts wide open knowing that there is no longer anything to fear. But it happens one heart at a time. Each day, we are being called to play our part. You can know that as you embrace your own beauty and let your heart light shine, you allow our Mother to transition with ease and grace and well being for all. You light up your circle of influence. You create a pathway for others to follow. Each of us, widens that path, cuts through the brambles and turns to encourage our brothers and sisters to come along.
What could be more beautiful? So I watch each day to see what triggers come my way. When I see anything in the outside world that moves me from my peace, I laugh. Yes, here it comes, let’s see what this is. I no longer am concerned if I understand it all, it matters not. I simply allow the emotions to move through me. It is happening much quicker these days, I can sob for 30 seconds (I mean really boo hoo!) and it is done. Believe me this is a change from the hours long sob sessions that came through me when I first began this clearing. Anger can be a flash and it is over. I congratulate myself for all of it. I am so amazing!!
I know that you are so amazing. I am shining your light back at you……it is brilliant and makes my heart sing to see its beauty. I love you. Oh yeah, you are me!! hee hee, how could I not love you?!
Thanks, Beautiful One! My off-centered feeling didn't last too long, mainly yesterday and this morning. This knowingness – what you write about – came in for me earlier today, and now I'm reading your blog and smiling… And while I was feeling those feelings, I knew I was not to stop them up, and my higher self was watching the whole time, and providing wise running commentary, which was quite annoying, when I was trying to be all caught up in my emotions! 🙂 There are some serious practical challenges afoot right now, and I know we will deal with them and learn from them.
With so much love and gratitude,
Hayat
hello beautiful Hayat! I just sent you an email. I am so glad that the storm has passed. I know that you are facing challenges and I know that you have the power and the ability to handle them with grace. I am holding such love for you.