Today I felt a lightening, energies lifting. I started to enjoy this new space of knowing nothing. The Solstice approaches, days shortening and I am intrigued with what departing may mean. Is it a metaphor? Are we departing from all knowns? Dropping any identity that we wrapped around ourselves, leaving behind any idea of how life should or could look? I am ready to leap into the mist, no longer caring if  I land or float or am to be pummeled by the waves. Only known is that I am tired of this script of survival and suffering and weightiness.

I was thinking of a toddler having a tantrum, the frustration of the small body and its limits, the parental authority figure with its demands, the passion of the desire driving the outburst. I share the frustration of that toddler. I strain against this body suit that feels too heavy and awkward. I have outgrown this way of being, no longer feeling the passion to engage in the old ways.

I want to weave lovelight, create beauty in new dimensional arenas, travel with a thought to a loved one, drink starlight and dance with the faeries. I have outgrown the chunky crayons of my childhood, I want new art supplies to play with.

As I was walking out to the spa to soak my sore back, I heard: ” You are about to experience radiant health like you have never known.” Well, ok, I will accept it with a grateful heart! I am ready to feel that aliveness in my body. I knew it to be true, yet have no understanding of what that looks like but feeling it in my cells.

We are holding all of it, the polarities and finding our way through it. This and that, wanting to be here and not wanting to be here. Loving soaking up dear ones and happy to step away. Detachment and immersion. All a wild mix. No longer following any rules about how to be, allowing the naughty and nice to be what they are.

Feeling the magic that is a possibility this Christmas season, dropping in for the ride. My heart open to the highest expression and pathway that serves my essence and yours. My candle is lit, I lie here by the flames and know myself blessed.