The Tsunami of Love Hitting Our Shores

Posted on February 9, 2014 by lovelylinda

Expand beyond the limits of linear form, say the palm trees.

I want to pass along this link to a meditation to open yourself to the tsunami of love that is presently hitting our energy fields. Linda Dillion, a channel for the Council of Love brings through the Divine Mother’s gift of love: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tGt8Lo2aacQ

This morning the air smells alive with winter’s arrival. The rain has kept up steadily for a second day now, the trees swaying in the cool breeze and my pink prayer flags flying with the slant of the drops. A fire flares and swoops in the hearth and my son has placed a warming cup of strong, delicious coffee at hand. I feel a bit of envy that he still has the ending ahead in a story that I read. In our family, we exchange books, passing on the good ones, eager to discuss and savor the highlights. I recall a boyfriend of my daughter’s joining us for dinner, during the hectic and harried high school years. He expressed astonishment that the conversation revolved around what we were all reading and the trading back and forth as well as the excitement we felt in sharing our treasures. We read out the compelling bits, luring one another into our temporary world in order to have a companion by our side to relish the journey with. He read for school assignments, a meagre duty bound consumption, that did not fit the rich smorgasbord that we supped at daily.

An image hung static on a wall, yet these stones contain worlds of lives once lived upon this earth. They call me to step out in expression of the All.

So, we sit in companionable silence, our books, the fire, the rain falling on the roof in a steady rhythm. I am feeling peace in this moment. I have gone through a dozen feelings in the space of this morning. I have noticed my head aching intermittently with blasts of intense pressure. I felt weak with tears and nausea which then turned to this moments’ contentment. I touch so many emotions in an hour, in five minutes that I cannot keep up with myself! (that is part of it, there is no “keeping up”). I lay in bed, certain that I would not get up today as I felt so flat, so disconnected, the world a gray shadow, holding no glimmer of light. The next moment, I find myself standing in the shower, amazed at the water cleansing my body. I stood in front of my closet, deciding to dress in lavender hues to greet the afternoon. My mood lifted by the cleanliness and color, I stand to do the above meditation, reeling as waves of nausea hit. I must lie down afterwards, tumbling about in my own field. Waves of love followed by despair forming a well in my being. Who am I?

Thank goodness I have so fully embraced my beingness as I might otherwise question what is going on. I long ago let go of any concern about losing my mind. Actually, I realize as I have heard others express this concern at different points on their path…..that has not ever been a concern of mine. A deep questioning of self, yes. I may not understand what I am doing or being, yet I trust the process fully. A friend’s call brings forward an aspect of myself that yet sought my embrace. Deep sobs shook me as I opened my heart to welcome in my erratic emotional self. We have cleared so much and are now asked to deal with the resonance of our holographic shadows that seek wholeness through our embrace. She relayed to me how my ability to be fully present with myself, expressing a range of emotions, allowed her to go more deeply into her flame of stillness and peace. This aspect that had been criticized outwardly and inwardly by myself as not “spiritual” was embraced in love and gratitude for what it had brought. It was such a beautiful exchange as I had felt myself over the past 24 hours, reaching out an arm to her flame, to anchor me in that steady stillness as I went further into the unknown, seeking out the dark shadows that were calling for my embrace. My widely ranging emotions are an expression of working with all that comes forth seeking this mother’s love and embrace. I play across a wide spectrum whereas she holds a deeply anchored note in a narrower range. All a part of this symphony we are playing together. All shadows are now seeking the light so that all can be brought home within ourselves. We rejoiced at our co-creation and support of one another as we express our truth.

Can I live fully without locking onto a destination ahead?

The task for each is to fully express our flame, the one we brought from home. We were conditioned to believe in an image of ourself that was crafted to fit in as a cog in the wheel of limitation. We sanded off our edges, tamped down our flames to stay within the confines given. We are now asked to step out from that image and express the full range of frequencies found within our one note. Indeed, our note contains the all! So in each moment, we are free to open to what flows authentically in that moment. It may be new, unfamiliar, nothing like who or what we thought ourselves to be. As we express this moment, it dissolves allowing the next to take form. Judgment disappears and we marvel at the fullness of the note, low and high, of equal playing pleasure. Amazing! We can only move, one moment to the next, yet the freedom in that movement is enormous! We can so fully feel what comes through us, as us, that all else dissolves. Yet a thread is always connected to the One, the Creator of all, giving us limitless freedom. We are free to love what we love, fully.

Back in my chair by the fire, universes of feelings traversed, gratitude abounding. Memories flow in of awakening throughout the night to hear the command: “Activation!” followed by electrical charges moving through my body. I then saw myself giving the command to others: “Activation!” while their forms slept. We are being activated by waves of love, how blessed are we.

My Prayer Flags Speak to Me

Posted on February 6, 2014 by lovelylinda

As I lay in the hot tub yesterday, my prayer flags brought me a message. I so love how everything seeks to converse with us and work with us to bring forth greater love. I was watching how the breeze was stirring them up, twisting and spinning them about. I had previously gotten up on a ladder to straighten and untangle them. The flags laughed and showed me how some that were twisted around the day before, were now hanging straight, and others were now tumbled. They surrender to the elements, allowing the rain and wind and sun to have their way. Here is their message:

“Dear one, you no longer need to use your mind to attempt to bring things to “right”. The elementals and the pink flame of your heart bring all that is needed in each moment. Twisted, upside down, tumbled…..allow all to be. The wind comes in to unwind, to move, to shift and your part is the allowance. There are moments of perfect stillness where one hangs in the void of emptiness. There are moments of gentle movement as if one is caressed by the All that is. At other times, fierce winds threaten to untether you, yet you are held firmly by your I AM presence, the cord connecting you to the Creator who ever has you in hand. Fear not the fraying, your threads flying off, scattering about. The birds pick them up and use them to build nests for their babies…new life out of the old. Thread by thread you are asked to let go. Know that what is true and strong remains, as you offer yourself as a vehicle for movement, a living prayer flying high. Rejoice in this!”

I embrace myself as a living prayer this day, open to the winds of change, the nourishing rain, the growth and weathering by the sun. I drink all in, savoring each moment. I AM a pink prayer flag of love. Today I am working on making bright orange flags to play with the pink, bringing my creative fires to dance with the flame of love.

Our New Leadership Emerges

Posted on February 5, 2014 by lovelylinda

This pink starfish was almost hidden until the sunlight revealed her. We are being called out by the sun to reveal our true colors.

As you know, I have recently received messages about stepping into my leadership role. I knew it did not look like our former understanding. I could sense it yet not define it. I did not have to as a fellow blogger, Brenda Hoffman did so perfectly! Here is the part that rang bells for me:

“You are the leader of one – and therefore, the leader of all. Displaying to others what is possible once you trust and love yourself. You are not better than others. Nor are you less than others. This is the Age to strut your stuff in any way you wish – but not expecting others to notice or care for they are strutting their stuff in their way…That is your road to glory. That is your joy. Believing in yourself enough to discover and live your life whether that meshes with others or not. “ http://lifetapestrycreations.wordpress.com/

I so love the way we are co-creating this new earth! I could feel the joy of living in a world of such magnificent diversity, where everyone fully embodied their truth, no longer sanding off the edges or putting on a mask over their essence. Allowing all of themselves to shine purely. Wow! Can’t you just feel that? There will be so much more dancing and song and color and play!

One of Gabriel’s paintings with the orange delighting me.

I often get colors that want expression, it has recently shifted from magentas and violets to oranges of every hue. I want to eat orange food, sweet potatoes, salmon, oranges and squash of every kind, drink in orange lilies as they blossom on my table, I wrap orange scarves about my throat. I have four paintings with orange boldly expressing itself hanging on the living room walls at the moment. I just read Lisa Gawlas’ post about the color of February being orange!

“Sacral chakra energy. The place where life emerges from. Sexual energy.” http://lisagawlas.wordpress.com/2014/02/05/the-birth-of-the-new-must-allow-for-the-death-of-the-old/

I watched this elderly couple make their way down to the beach, holding hands while carrying a bottle of wine to share. They had arrived to watch the sunset. They spoke so eloquently to me of the tenderness of love.

This so fits with the union of the divine counterparts heating up as our fires of passion are coming online to birth the new life. My heart feels this excitement. Yet my body today is feeling flat and worn. I was awake for most of the night, not able to read or do anything but lie there in the dark with various currents running up and down, sweats and chills, head pressure and strange dreams that I flowed in and out of. It has been an intense few days and my body is asking for stillness and quiet. The predicted rain has not come, blue skies and sunshine when I am craving mists and damp. The birds are calling me to sit outside and bask in it all. 11:11am…..time to go and be with what is.

Flowing in the Fast Current of February

Posted on February 4, 2014 by lovelylinda

A faery arch in the redwoods, symbolizing the joining to come.

It is only the fourth of February and my life has been going at a full gallop since it blew in. It is difficult to find a sequence to events as I have lived through ages since the first of the month. During an afternoon of art, Nooryana (a warrior aspect of myself) came forth and settled in more fully. We also did a stargate card session, which always amazes me with its accuracy. It showed the old focus in my life with the image of a magician and a block. I understood this as seeking spiritual gifts and magic within a known structure….the new age movement with its boundaries and rules. The other cards showed me in my inward space of now, moving into greater discernment and sword sharp, clarity. A gate card had me standing in front of it, gathering all of myself, the sword I drew, ran through my center, magnetizing all of my aspects to myself to it. The crown card lit up as I stepped into my leadership role, uniting all of myself in the circle of unity (the other card I drew). Once we have cleared and embraced all of ourselves, the light and the dark, we are then free to step through the gate into the new landscape of oneness and love. I felt myself spiral down into the center of the All that is. I then flowed back up, observing each layer from a perspective of oneness. Seeing the all in each part. I had a vision of every soul coming into unity with self, receiving their crown and stepping forth singing their note in this celestial song.

Play with chalk and symbols.

It was such an incredible experience. All from some cards! You cannot make this stuff up! I had further confirmation from a friend in New Zealand, seeing my crown and sword and confirming the vision I was given. She and I and another worked on the inner planes with the divine mothers, clearing dark energies about a man they were close to. All flowed with ease, each of us complementing one another’s gifts, bringing about the highest good as the higher self of the man stepped forth to receive this clearing’s freedom. My spirit smiled at me, as I accepted my gifts more fully.

The next morning, I had a clearing session with a gifted friend. That morning, I received an email from my daughter that triggered me, a sign that something needed clearing. I was surprised to discover the deep soul connection I shared with her partner. I saw the reason for his wariness with me, I had chopped his head off a few times in other lifetimes! We had played many roles with one another and he was again playing a powerful role for me. I sobbed with the emotions that were released and forgave him and myself for much of what came up. We went on to clear other emotions, most of them residing in my feet. My I AM presence was anchored in as far as my ankles, my feet remaining to be cleared. So, we worked on what showed up. Some with my daughter, as we came to teach one another about freedom and God’s will, over and over. All of our lifetimes were in the mother-daughter relationship, alternating who was “in control”. I recall her yelling at me as a young girl how she was so did not enjoy being the daughter, she knew herself as the mother! There was some spinal twining with my elder son, planned on our parts, until now. The moment for release here to allow the next unfolding. A heel’s worth of grief (it had felt the burning at the stake fires) with another released as did a toe of guilt with my sister who committed suicide thirty-five years ago. A ball of my foot release with the one I thought my beloved, as he taught me that self sacrifice was old and not an honoring of myself. Cascades of tears flowed as she and I worked back and forth to clear all from our fields that was ready to depart. Emptied, we then filled ourselves with our own essence that had awaited room to enter in.

Later, my friend of the cards and messages, came over and we spent a couple of hours in the hot tub, creating a wheel that was being turned by us and others known to us, who participated in their KA bodies. We stretched out this way and that, under and above water as dolphins, whales and cosmic beings played in the waters with us. Four crystals formed the hub of the wheel on the bottom of the tub. We were well and truly washed clean for what came next. My friend had released a barrier in herself with her divine counterpart a day or so before. She now felt him in every cell of her being, no separation. He is assisting in what is to come. We set up an altar on a painting that I had co-created with an artist in New Zealand. She had brought through an aspect of myself, called Rosebud. When we worked on the painting, a dancing couple appeared in the blank space of the canvas. I knew it as my beloved and myself. It had been rolled up for months as I had no space to hang it. We unrolled it on the floor and it was the base for an altar we set up. The crystal skulls want to participate and I laugh when I see the hearts that I was guided to place in their eyes the night before. They knew love was on the agenda.

Painting co-created with Jan Williams……she brought forth the angelic form.

I am to set the energy as I understand that I am to be initiated. There is an anointing that will take place, preparing me for my beloved. Taking direction from my friend, I lie down, my head on the painting, crystals at my crown, heart rocks at my feet. My friend plays her crystal singing bowls and bells over me. The bowls stated their love of playing together and how their power increases in co-creation as does ours. I travel within, feeling my cells spinning faster, raising my vibration. My beloved appears, he is learning to feel form once again. He reaches out a hand and pulls me to him. We stand and spiral as one. He whispers: “Soon, soon the meeting will take place.” I understand that I am acting as proxy for thousands, no, millions on the planet. I feel the waves of despair of souls having closed their hearts to the idea of being truly met in love. It is an innate desire, the coming together into wholeness, before the splitting apart. The desire is so intense and the heartache so deep from lifetimes apart, that we have not allowed ourselves to fully feel it nor bring it into the light of day. My sword went into action, clearing the despair, the feelings of unworthiness, the self-doubt, the pain. It takes great courage to open ourselves fully to this love, to open ourselves to ourselves. Our beloved is us as we are they. Imagine how the reunion of these couples will ignite the world with love! The earth announces her readiness to hold this frequency of love. I have been a part of preparing the pathway for the reunions, for many a year. I have surrendered over and over my yearning for this union. I have trusted that the most perfect timing is being arranged by my I AM presence. I know how loved I am as I walk with this fullness in my heart.

All was arranged that neither of my housemates were returning for the weekend, so the altar was able to be left in place to hum all night long. I was buzzing and not able to sleep until almost midnight. The next morning, we began again. We skyped with a friend in Scotland and the three of us journeyed together. As the energy completed, I received a text that my son was on his way home. All perfectly orchestrated and aligned. We come together and things happen with no effort, thought or plan; new vistas and landscapes present themselves. Our human minds could not arrange it as well if we tried. Allowing and trusting the flow brings such rich gifts!

The next day, four of us met to sit with crystals, rocks, skulls, flowers and the sun. We all shifted further. One friend said how she desired to spread her legs wide and invite in the ecstasy of the universe! We laughed at the orgasmic bliss that our hearts were experiencing. We were opening in new ways, fluid and free, our cells inviting in this union.

The next initiation is at my shoulder, awaiting its moment. There is no preparation though I am given a window of time in that Leopold, my beloved skull, desires to be wearing a wreath of yellow flowers in celebration of my awaiting expansion. I understand it will take me into a new realm of existence. The forsythia bush has just put out a few blossoms, within a week or two, it will be covered and ready to be made into wreaths. I open myself in readiness, I offer all that I am in service to the One. Whatever awaits, I am ready. I know this is happening for all of us as we embody more of who we truly are. I honor the courage of each of our hearts, opening to love’s flames.

Galloping into the Year of the Horse

Posted on January 31, 2014 by lovelylinda

My son, Gabriel’s painting in celebration of the Year of the Horse.

As the year of the horse propels us towards February’s fire and movement, we are being lifted into a new field of love and expansion. I realized that for the past few weeks, I have been dreaming of riding a horse on beaches, through forests and over misty moors. It seems my horse awaits, offering to take me on a journey into realms unknown.

I was chatting with a friend on facebook, sending one another hugs and love when suddenly my eyes filled with tears as I felt him hugging me. It was as if he were physically next to me. We then spoke of horses, with the year of the horse upon us, and he recalled a white stallion that he rode into battles of light and dark, many a time. Suddenly, I find myself astride my own horse, wearing chain mail whose weight I can feel on my body, sword in hand, riding with a company, my friend at my side. We are of elven origin, can feel the fey nature of our beings. It feels like a scene out of the Lord of the Rings! He then types my name, Nooryana, and my body goes into an extreme head nodding confirmation. I feel her enter my being and experience a sense of awe at her beauty and strength. My friend expressed his knowing that we were there when the veils were pulled down and the wonder of being here now, as the veils are being lifted. My body, once again, confirmed this for me.

Our entrance table celebrating this new year.

Everything is blending, time and space shifting. Our hearts are uniting us so that we truly do feel one another across oceans, continents, time and dimensions. Our connection to other aspects of ourselves is strengthening as we open our hearts and bodies to welcome them in. I love Nooryana and today I am going to do some art with a friend, playing with big sheets of newsprint, chalks and crayons to see if the image I saw of her, will emerge on paper. I sense something will appear to deepen the connection.

As we are being asked to enlarge our sense of who we are, I have watched my emotional body react in shuddering waves to a message that came through a dear friend. We were driving in the car, and she was sharing her practice of praying out loud with others, a part of her role as prayer chaplain at her church. I spoke a prayer of gratitude for the gift of her presence in my life and she said she wanted to do the same. What came out was in a different voice, a low tone speaking, “Linda receives her robe and crown and scepter and will now step into her role as a leader of men and women.” We were both astonished as the words were not what her mind had intended. I felt and observed my emotional body go into a tailspin. How could this be about me? How am I to be a leader? Me, who lives such a small, quiet life? The part of myself that seeks to contain, lit up all the roadblocks to this being possible. Yet, I have known for a time, that soon I would be called out into the world. I have heard, “Rest now for the time will come when all will be in motion.” I have sat with this message for three days, allowing it to percolate through my system. I knew I was to share it, not as a form of self-aggrandizement (which my ego self says, oh, yes it is!) but to open the doorway for us all to step more fully into the truth of who we are. In the days following, I was given similar messages from other friends, reinforcing the truth of this.

Truth Trigger resting in her box made by my son.

I believe we are all being called to express our gifts more fully. We are asked to enlarge upon our idea of who we are, breaking free from the conditioning to play small and safe. Hence, there is a need to clear anything that blocks our gifts from coming through. I am being guided to begin offering clearing sessions with the sword, Truth Trigger and Mother Sekhmet. I am a conduit through which she works to clear and shatter limitations. The sword appeared at this time, as she is needed to remove the remnants that block our knowing of the truth of why we are here, now, at this shift of the age. Mother Sekhmet has called me to this work and assured me that those who have need of this work, will be drawn.

Elephants have been showing up for me for weeks. This one appeared in the midst of the redwoods. I love her!

I just read a story of elephants being tethered by rope. Someone inquired as to why the elephants remain when it was apparent that they could snap the rope on their legs with one movement. The trainer explained that the rope had been enough to restrain them when they were infants and once that was internalized, the belief remained, despite it no longer being true. This is such a beautiful illustration of the conditioning that we have accepted as truth about ourselves, often from something we were told as a child. We are adults now, free to break those ropes and be who we choose to be. The sword works to shatter these limiting beliefs and allow ourselves entrance into an expanded knowing of who we are. Of course, we have no need of a sword or anyone to do this. Yet, those comments can lodge in our beings, appearing as huge and frightening beings. In honoring our inner child, we can take someone’s hand as we stand to face these beings. We can let her/him know that they do not have to face it alone, that we have called in help. Our higher selves will orchestrate the right person, sign or situation that we need in order to take the next step on our journey to wholeness. I so appreciate Mother Sekhment’s fierce mother’s love showing up in my life!

I am grateful to be here now. I am ready to expand into more of myself, embracing Nooryana and all others who I open to receive. I calm my ego self and surrender to the Creator’s will for my life. To serve the One is the all. If She/He believes in me, who am I to question that? I will play the part I came to play with all that I am, however large or small that appears to the outside world. In truth, I am shown there is no large or small part……all parts are necessary for the whole. What is necessary, is to fully embody our own roles. Leader of men and women…..bring it on! I have no idea what that looks like or entails, I only have to take the next step in full trust that I am guided and loved. Thank you for daring to take your next step in faith and trust that you are more than you ever dreamed you could be. I love your light and the beauty that we are co-creating on this lovely jewel of the Earth. She is taking her step into stardom and asks us to follow her.

Paintings found at gaberobertsart.com

Co-creating in the New Fields of Light

Posted on January 28, 2014 by lovelylinda

We were sitting in this state of repose shown by this Buddha. My sword, in her new box created by my son, enjoying the sunlight.

We mirrored the state of repose of this Buddha. My sword, in her new box created by my son, enjoying the sunlight before her work commenced.

The energy has shifted as evidenced at a gathering of a few sisters last week. We sat in the sunshine by a softly flowing water feature and each held different crystals and rocks which took us on our own journeys. There was some quiet conversation as we sporadically shared yet for the most part, we were engrossed in our own world. Hours passed and we knew that much had flowed through our fields as we opened to be conduits for the energy.

As I wrote in my last post, I had been in deep stillness for the day or two before our gathering. The morning of the event, I awoke and knew that I was not yet released from the stillness. Some knowing held me in bed, listening to the household awake and move about. I surrendered and lay communing with the tree outside my window. At some point, it was as if a weight had been lifted, and I was free to get up and engage the day.

The tree’s shadow on the billboard caught my attention, its KA body visible!

As I hopped in the car with my friend to drive together to our gathering, she related that after her morning meditation and clearing her chakras, she found herself knocking on my front door. The realization came that she was in her KA body, so no need to knock. (KA: the second body, the energy body which becomes the light body. It is the same shape and size as your physical body, and being an energy field, it permeates every space of your physical body. It is also known as the etheric double or spiritual twin. From Tom Kenyon.) She came in the door, feeling a bit awkward having walked in unannounced but sensing all was well. She went into my room, stood at the foot of my bed where I was lying. She realized that she was to anchor me to the center of the earth, so she put her hands around my ankles and immediately felt the energy that I had been gathering, flowing through her down to the center of the Earth. The energy then expanded and shot back up through a large torus portal breaking the surface of the earth and flowing out into the atmosphere. Our KA bodies were huge, expanding with the up-swelling of the energy. We faced one another, touching foreheads, giggling with the joy of it all as our hands formed the prayer position in front of our chests. We were honoring one another for our part, well played.

It seems that I was lying there, awaiting her presence to assist in releasing the energy that had built from the day before. It was such a confirmation of how we are co-creating, each bringing our skills and abilities to the fore for the highest good of all. It was not necessary to know my friend was present, only to listen and follow my guidance that advised the continued stillness. My friend followed her guidance, even when she felt uncomfortable entering my house unannounced. It is the trusting and surrendering to the inner knowing, that brings forth the gifts. I felt so blessed to be a part of it.

A new painting of my son’s that shows the rocks and water and trees in a new light. Formless yet you feel the landscape.

I am excited to begin experiencing more with our KA bodies. Tom Kenyon has some good exercises to assist in tuning into our KA bodies on his website. My friend that I recently visited on the coast, has reported that I now show up in her kitchen or greenhouse to chat. I sometimes give her messages to pass along to myself. Our I AM presence will bring messages through others as a means to communicate as we come more in resonance with ourselves. As she understood, we are beginning to access one another without the need to be physically present. Telepathy, teleportation and bi-location are at our doorstep! All coming on line to remind us of the powerful creator beings that we are. We are not interested in using these abilities as parlor tricks, rather we know we are given these gifts to change this world into one of peace, joy, harmony, abundance, freedom and love. As we co-create together for the highest good of all, much will be given to us. As we step up to shoulder the responsibility that comes with our gifts, we become powerful creators. What a year awaits us!

Fire and Sun Blazing

Posted on January 24, 2014 by lovelylinda

Tossing a crystal into the ocean with love.

Today I awoke with the note of stillness ringing in my ear. A day to savor all about me. First though, I had to go out to drop my car at the garage with my dear mechanic who decides what should or should not be done for my almost 20 year old car. He has his own measure of whether or not a repair is worth it considering her age and miles. I have little say in it. My rear passenger window stopped working. I took it in for repair. It came back not working. Jesse said, “You don’t carry passengers in the backseat, what is the point of spending money to fix that?” He was correct, I rarely carry more than one passenger but was willing to pay to have the window fixed. Jesse vetoed that. He changed the oil and did what he deemed necessary for my safety. He is relieved that I no longer take off for long journeys across the country. He tracks Maxie’s needs on his computer but amazingly with hundreds upon hundreds of cars coming and going, can recall much of the details with a glance at her. I accept Jesse’s quirks as he charges fair prices and will always try to lower the cost in any way he can. It is who he is. His garage teems with life as his honesty has earned him a steady clientele. He is always busy.

For the remainder of this day, I have been sitting by the fire, enjoying its warmth while I read a book. As the afternoon came, the sun’s heat drew me outside to sit in her warmth. Its rays are so intense these days that I can only take so much before I must move indoors. Feeling decadent, I sit by the fire with the door and windows open to let the warmth and sunlight in more fully. The house can be chilly despite the warmth found at the doorway. Brilliant blue sky, showcasing the early buds on the trees. The world feels caught in a dream state as the moments float by. An occasional breeze lifts my pink prayer flags and they flutter like a bunch of adolescent girls at a dance. I sink deeply into a space of rest within myself.

Boats in the harbor offering my heart wings, feeling February movement to come.

A friend called who said, “We are singing the same song.” A surge of recognition through me, oh my, we share the same soul group or family. No wonder we delight so in one another’s note! She and a few others will gather for some ceremony tomorrow, and today’s stillness is in preparation. We are trained in our society to focus on the action part of a happening and give little thought to the “being” part that proceeds it and lays the groundwork or structure for its unfoldment. My spirit is busy in its prep work and most times before movement, I am pulled into a deep pool of stillness. I honor this part that is mine to do for a group event, the seemingly passive part that underpins the outward expression.

I love lighthouses, teaching me I can emanate my light from a fixed position these days.

All feels so close, almost visible as it shimmers at the corner of my sight. The hard work is done, the deep sigh arises. I am aware of savoring these moments as we witness the shift of this age. The age of Aquarius that has been spoken of for decades, is finally upon us in the physical world. I bank the fires of my heart in preparation for the wild passion and movement that is afoot. Horse year indeed! We are about to go from a tentative walk and clumsy trot to a full out gallop. Hang on!

Birthday Ponderings

Posted on January 22, 2014 by lovelylinda

Dancing with the diamond light.

Today the calender states that I am 58 years old. Throughout my “frumpy forties” , as I called those years of numbness and pain, I had looked forward to my “fabulous fifties”, knowing somehow that those would be my years to shine. Indeed, at fifty, my world as I knew it fell apart, and the journey to myself began. Today, I survey the landscape I stand upon with a smile.

There is no more looking to escape pain, no more closing myself off from joy, no more “duty girl”, trying to please. There is freedom, there is love, there is quietness, there is richness and there is knowing. I know that I am love. After begging for direction from on high for a year and being told, to “be”, I have truly settled into that path and claimed it for my own. I was given to understand that my role in this ascension process was to open a pathway of being. After fifty years of doing, “being” was not anything that I understood. I have anguished over it, rallied against it, judged myself harshly, been judged by others and yet……walked into it with everything I had. Surrendering over and over again to that inner voice’s insistence that this was the way. Trusting even when I was terrified, stepping forward even when I wanted to run back into the known and familiar.

A rope swing in the redwoods inviting me back to jump into its crystal pool.

Just yesterday, a friend shared that I had helped her to let go of judgment. She related that she would find herself judging my path, “Why can’t Linda just settle down and get a job?” (Believe me, for everyone who asked that question, I asked it of myself thousand of times!) Yet she saw me hold my tone of beingness, over and over which she says allowed her to loosen some of her fears of life. If I could live without structure or form, she could trust her own life more fully as well as appreciate the structure her job, groups, and family provide. I so appreciate that she has chosen to remain my friend, despite the fears my path has brought up in her at times.

As I sit here in front of the fire in the hours before dawn, sipping a cup of coffee, hot liquid warming me, I feel so blessed. I am so grateful to myself for listening to Sophia, my I AM presence and finding in her, such a devoted friend. I know that the hard times are over…….and there were many of them in this fifth decade of my life. That is now past as we truly step into the age of Aquarius, my birth sign, my time to shine. All that has led to this moment now fades into completion, a story ended as I am birthed anew.

At times, this path has been stepping into the mist with complete trust.

In this new story, which I begin this day, I am a woman who knows her worth. I am liquidlovelight flowing forth in cascades of dancing colors. I can view all aspects of myself with tenderness. The fact that I do not always show up for others yet do show up for myself, has been a life changer. I can see a middle path arising, where we all show up for ourselves, allowing us to fully be present with one another. I can almost touch Shambhala, its energies seeping into this reality with its joy. I do not know the “how” of creating our new earth. I simply know my tone and choose to sing it as purely as I can. I can hear your tone as well, so beautiful and true. Together, our hearts desiring peace, abundance, freedom and love for all beings on this planet, we are co-creating the new earth.

I am this mushroom, raising its brilliance from the darkness that was.

Last night I spoke with the Creator and dear Sophia stating my sense of completion. I could go home now, mission over or I could begin a new story, take part in a new play. I felt the deep fatigue in my soul, weariness from sloughing through the mud of the old. To rest in the arms of love……oh yes. I was then given a peek behind the scenes to come. Tears fell at the beauty, and I knew I wanted a chance to take part. My mind has its fears; will I have enough money to continue to support myself, where is my place on this earth, will I find my community, my love pod, will I have a home to call my own, will I have a partner…..on and on it questions. My heart pats it lovingly on the head and smiles. I am a beloved of the Creator, I am cared for mightily. There is joy unending awaiting me. This new story has a fairy tale ending created by and for me. I am dreaming it into being with each breath. My heart overflows with gratitude and love for the being that I am as I step into my new life. I embrace each of you in this energy of rebirth and rejoice. Hallelujah! Happy birthday to me, sweet Linda Marie.

Infusion of Beauty

Posted on January 20, 2014 by lovelylinda

First day’s sunset on the ocean. liquidlovelight!

I am back from a wonderful trip that infused my cells and renewed my heart. My younger son and I drove north to visit a friend on the northern California coast. It was such a delight to travel together as he is the most companionable of companions. As an artist, he shares my sensitivity to beauty in all its forms. My friend lives in an old farmhouse that she and her husband resurrected, decades ago, from condemned status to a sanctuary that sustains them with its gardens and animals. There are a few sheep and chickens, a greenhouse, raised garden beds, bees, flowers, berry producing vines and bushes, a wonderful dog, a fire pit, and easy access to the deep mysteries of the redwoods and a coastline of beaches and rivers to play in.

One reason for the trip was to take a basketful of crystals to be released into the ocean and rivers for healing of the effects of Fukushima. Friends and I had prayed and done ceremony with the crystals for a couple of months until we were given the signal that it was time for their release. I am grateful for the timing as it allowed us to shift from the idea of healing the waters to offering our love to the waters. It may turn out that the radiation is for our evolution, we do not know the larger implications of what is taking place. I have let go of healing anything or anyone and instead offer a field of love to all. I trust love to know what is best, surrendering to the Creator in all things.

My son tossing a crystal into the sea.

Each day we tossed crystals from cliffs and shorelines, allowing them to do their magic. My friend’s husband, a hunter/fisherman, took some with him on his boat and sent them flying with love. My friend saw them standing upright in the waters, each connecting to the others, radiating out beams of light as they connected to the grid about our earth.

I was also in need of an infusion of beauty. We went to the redwood forests nearby to retrieve a crystal that my friend had been directed to place in a magnificent grandfather tree last July for one of the alignments. It was now time to return to her and her smile was broad when she found it still in the tree. This forest felt more ancient and wild than any of the other redwood forests that I have been to. A few minutes walk in and my heart was so filled with the trees’ presence that I sobbed and sobbed in gratitude for all that they have held for humanity. I knew that I had once stood amongst them, my roots digging in the damp mossy ground and my branches flung upwards to the sky. The finest of nature’s cathedrals, inspired hushed tones as we walked in reverence and joy. The greens and browns soothed my soul as I leaned against the rough bark and drank deep of the humus bouquet in the air. The sun filtered through, illuminating various scenes as our necks craned upward following trees whose tops were lost to our sight. We were gifted mightily. The trees and elementals whispered their gratitude for our light flowing in and amongst them, an exchange of such mutual delight, a tone of harmony and love. Our trip was to hone this tone, to know it on a cellular level, so as to emanate it with each breath and step we take.

The ocean with its jutting rocks and craggy shores, leapt in joy and surprising warmth. I went barefoot for part of each day to soak the salt and fresh water, the rocks and dirt, leaves and needles, into my being. Icy rivers ran into dancing ocean waves, seagulls playing in the vortex created as they flowed into oneness. Sunsets streamed their colors, searing my heart anew each day while the full moon rose to offer its cool brilliance to the night sky. A handful of days, offering all of nature’s bounty to us in love. We opened to receive this gift through all of our senses, stepping into the newness of the amplified energies of this year.

We ate fresh food from the garden and fish and meat offered from the water and land. We drank water from Mount Shasta’s headwaters, energized with her pristine light. Everything was alive and speaking to us with such love. We felt encapsulated in a bubble of harmony, four passengers on the ship, New Earth, sailing merrily along.

Mount Shasta

Mount Shasta bathed us in love as we picnicked on her slopes as part of our journey south. The peace we felt rendered us mute as we lay against our rock backrest. The love is gaining substance, you can almost scoop it up like the handful of snow I tossed at my son on the mountain. It is permeating our beings, we can drink liquidlovelight, eat love, breathe in love, be caressed by love. It is showering down upon us with the sun’s every ray, splintering our fields into the rainbow light that we are.

Rocks and ocean behind=happy woman

I had a dream while away where an aspect of myself came and told me I had 6% and indicating that more of me was ready to flow in. What? Am I embodying only 6% of who I truly am? I pondered this until it came clear through a conversation with a friend. We so need one another to illuminate our truth! She asked if it referred to the 6% that remained to be cleared in my field. Yes, that was it, said my body, with huge nods of confirmation. As I used my Mother Sekhmet gifted sword of truth on us both, and felt the shattering of more that no longer serves, we heard that it was now 4% remaining. All is to be cleared before the end of this month as February represents flying into our freedom! Woohoo! It is not the numbers that matter, it is the note that can ring clear and true from our hearts. We are all tuning our instruments, anticipating the conductor’s lift of the baton. Oh, the music we are about to make! The angels are taking their seats in anticipation of the glory. We are master musicians, one and all. Find your seat, we are about to begin!

Floating in the Mists

Posted on January 12, 2014 by lovelylinda

The mighty redwoods are calling me to come play.

The void, again? I feel as if I am floating in space, no form to hold to, no sense of “me”. The emptiness can feel uncomfortable as nothing seems to touch who I am. Opposing this are moments of complete connection with myself, with Source and the knowing that all is well, all are one and that love is all.

Then back to being a particle floating in the ethers. My body feels uncomfortable, no real pain, simply does not feel that it fits me. It feels heavy and cumbersome, slow and awkward. I want to lay it down and float free in that cosmic sky. In my heart, I know this is all part of the process of finding myself home in every moment. I surrender to it, breathing through it as if through a veil. No desire to do anything. Tired, a fatigue that permeates my cells and thoughts. It is as if I am underwater and it takes too much effort to make that kick to the surface. No, I’ll just float down here. Even with the knowing that life is up there, I feel no motivation to move. Everything that I have experienced in this lifetime, is done. I feel complete with everyone and everything. Nothing holds a spark for me. There is only this suspended space where I float.

I am ready to live in the new earth. There have been moments of being there, sweet moments. I hold the feeling of those moments and the vision of the love pods and the harmony. I can hear the song of souls, basking in their freedom to sing their true note.

It has been such a waiting game as we waited for everyone to come to the knowing that it has been a game that we became caught in, the Matrix indeed. We have had to wait for folks to choose to unplug from that reality as the new play is about to begin. My work is done for this stage and hence the void as I await the new where I am to create. I drift, life reduced to keeping my body comfortable as well as my heart. I awoke and made a fire, I look out at the overcast sky wondering if the moisture droplets in the air will coalesce into raindrops. I am desiring a latte and a croissant…..comfort food. I think of exercise and can’t reach it, my body too heavy to move. I am planning on making a trip tomorrow to see a soul sister. That will take me to Mount Shasta, the redwoods, rivers and the ocean. Perhaps all the natural beauty will shake this malaise. It comes and goes, as moments of joy break through but it feels like having a low grade fever. You are not really sick but you do not feel the vibrancy of wellness. Everything is a bit out of focus. The old is crumbling and I feel the dissolution viscerally. There have been moments of despair as the collective voice feels the extent of the unraveling.

Seeing life through a misty lens.

Fortunately, one of my sons is going with me on this trip. Left to myself, the thought of packing seems daunting at this moment. But pack, I will. And tomorrow at this time we will be driving north, into the cold beauty. I feel myself sitting by a fire with my friend on the full moon, knowing there is power in our communion. I surrender to the desires of my I AM presence and move where she points me. I know myself blessed to have a warm house, good food, and warm hearted folks about me during this stage of the game. I am grateful for it all, even this time that does not engage me. For each day, more are awakening, more are feeling their own God self stirring within. That was the mission and it is being accomplished. I am grateful to have successfully carried out my role.

So, I float until the new play gets up and running. I am ready. There is no fear nor nervousness. This new play is the one I came here to shine in. Until then, I sit in the wings, radiating the light that I AM.

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