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Hearts Opening

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A more active day as I moved from the downstairs area to the upstairs of the house I am renting. I enjoyed cleaning, mopping the floors, washing windows. I have not owned a home in a long time and I found that I truly enjoyed the activity today. The owner is giving me a good rate as I help with the cleaning between renters. I did not have to wash windows but wanted the view to be crystal clear. The upstairs is the main house and has a different energy. Tonight I luxuriated in a hot bath (the water heater had been on the fritz for a couple of days so it was doubly enjoyed) and then lay on my bed with the french doors open to the deck. The sky was overcast in a deep blue cover with an underskirt of the softest cream resting on the horizon. I felt so blessed by its beauty. The cool air on my overheated skin, the stillness, the colors……I felt as if I were drinking it. Great waves of appreciation went from me to all of it. I feel so blessed to have this assignment at this time on the planet of being in nature and enjoying her beauty fully. What a cushy deal! I am so grateful it is my job! In the hot bath, I had felt this love energy moving through from my heart to my hands and I cried out in my desire to hold everyone in my love, to gift each person with this deep rest that I am experiencing. To allow all to feel this communion with the Divine. To let the love that is permeating the ethers, the water, the rocks, the sky……to let that love fill each one’s heart to overflowing. I am savoring every moment of this time and sending that enjoyment and love into the earth. When we are in our joy, we open the pathway for others to step into theirs. We are not taught this, rather we are fed guilt if we are having too much fun. We have been taught to taint our joy with the thoughts of the suffering of others. Yet how does that help anyone? So much of what we have been taught has been backwards. I stand radiant in my joy, and in doing so, it is anchored on the planet.


I had a couple of phone calls tonight from dear hearts close to mine, expressing tears of frustration due to the fatigue they are feeling and the overwhelm of life’s challenges. We are programmed to believe that we must be productive and when the body demands rest, our minds berate us for not going to that event or getting more accomplished in the work day. We believe that there is something wrong with us as others seem to be doing alright. The comparison game is odious, another lie to keep us in line. Recognizing that this is old programming coming up to be released, can be a relief! There are intense energies flowing into our physical bodies at this time as we are being rewired. Deep rest, whenever you can get it, is necessary to integrate them. It is time to allow yourself to listen to your bodies and to let your minds drift. Let go seems to be the mantra this month. Letting things figure themselves out, caring for what needs to be done but dropping all that is not essential. I reminded one of my dearest, that the old was up for release as so much more of her was waiting to come in. How lovely to welcome in more of our true selves who love us so! The little me’s of I am not good enough, I have not accomplished enough and all the rest, are going so that our more expanded and conscious selves can take up residence. And our new selves adore us! They get the mighty beings that we are.

I had a lovely peek at what is coming today as hearts are awakening. The handyman came to work on the hot water heater again. He had been a couple of times in the past week as it kept going out and at one point, even the water turned off. We ended up having an incredible conversation. He comes from a Christian background but he was so open to the new energies. He knew that he wanted to expand beyond any doctrine and move past the separation of a belief system. He has been meditating in the mornings and been receiving visions and insights that he was not sure if he could trust. I was able to affirm for him what he was feeling, that he was right on. He felt that he had healing in his hands and had a deep desire to heal children. I held his hands and a channeled message came through for him, confirming his healing abilities. It was so lovely, the communion we felt. We hugged and told one another that we loved each other. This is the new way. We are being gifted with views into one another’s hearts and the beauty is beyond words.

This painting is one that gives me great joy. It is by my friend, Lea Bard. These pink flowers seem to dance with joy and I want to sit and look at them in the pretty wallpapered room she created.

Quietly in the Joy

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It has been a quiet day of slipping into the joy stream. Misty and overcast most of the day which suited me just fine. Truly my Avalon self is getting her fix of green and water and mist. Everything is connecting. The water and the stones are carrying the new energies and are celebrating. I realized that the celebration has begun! It has begun in my heart and in Gaia’s heart and in the elemental and angelic kingdoms. They can all see what is coming down the pike so swift and sure. I cannot see it yet but I can feel it! The shift of the ages is here. It is not some date at the end of next year, it is happening now. The funny thing about it is that we must claim it, for it to be real. Yes, we must claim it for ourselves before we see it out pictured in the world. It is a bit of a conundrum as you wonder how you can claim something that can’t be seen. But it can be felt. Tune in to your bodies, they have joy dancing in their cells. Tune in to the earth, you will feel sparkles of joy. Tune in to the elements and you will know that they are alive with delight. Everything is singing! It is being felt around the world. As we acknowledge feelings of love and peace and joy, they grow and become more evident to all. It starts with each one of us refusing to accept the illusion of separation any longer. We are one people. We are the rainbow tribe. We are one with our mother, Gaia. We are here to live in love with one another and with life. We are love, that is our essential nature. People are waking up and wanting their freedom. We have been enslaved on so many levels. It is mind boggling when you begin to get a glimpse of it. And it is heart opening when you begin to allow yourself to love as we were designed to do.


I have had love flitting around me and as you know, my beloved is here in a new way since I had that profound experience on the inner planes of the sacred marriage. My heart has healed and opened in its wholeness and that is what is bringing my beloved in. There have been others who have felt drawn to the love and thought it romantic. I think that this way of being love is so new, that we get confused. We do not have a category to put it in. To encounter a heart fully opened, is still so new in our world. Our known world of love speaks of familial love, the love of friends and romantic love. In truth, we are destined to fall in love many times in a day! We are to experience love with all in our sphere. We will have this deep contact where our hearts swell with love for all. There will be the love of the beloved, that is a gift from our Creator to each of us. This twin ray love is real and we shall soon see the planet flooded with these reunions. These couplings will come together in service, to bring forth their gift. What is so new and exciting is the deep love that we will share with our soul families. It is a level of intimacy and caring that we thought reserved for the one. Now we will experience it with the many. To contact hearts on such a deep level is a privilege and a gift. To let go of all barriers, all fears and to be transparent in front of another. This is the new norm. I am experiencing it and it is blissful.

I recall my younger sister telling me that she felt that we should love everyone. She could not understand this world of closed hearts. I recall responding that her thinking was crazy as you could not possibly love everyone. This dear sensitive soul, took her life at the age of 22 as she could not live in our closed off world. The world is finally catching up with her ideas and is becoming a safe place for sensitive souls. It is becoming a safe place to love.

So open your hearts, smile at a stranger and believe that the feelings of peace and joy that are bubbling up are real. Clear out the debris in your heart so that it can shine its pure light. All hurts, pains, stories of being wronged, have to go. We are past the time when we can take anything personal. We are ready to let our heart lights shine. It may be the light that makes someone’s day. It could be the light that saves someone’s life. You never know but you can trust that to shine your light is working on many levels. I get such a kick out of seeing on the inner planes, some of the effects of my heart light. We are beacons and if you looked down on our dear planet, you would see our heart lights shining through the night. We are the stars that the stars look at and we are as wondrous a sight. So shine bright!

The photos are some of the island views that are filling my heart.

Setting Sail

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I find that I am sailing in new seas today. This beautiful sailboat passed by and took me with it. My being can expand outward with the birds, hop on this boat and move about, rest in a rock and feel the connection to our mother’s heart and become sap soaring upward to the highest tree branch. There is new energy available to us as we are lined up with the galactic center. It is streaming through so intensely and permeating every part of us. I love the wisdom of our Creator. She/He sends these energies in waves of light and sound and vibration that are subtle. Folks do not know that they are being upgraded, so to speak yet they feel lighter. I see people letting go of things that would have troubled them greatly before, opening their hearts in a new softer way. Things are becoming a bit blurry about the edges as a blanket of love wraps around this earth. For myself, I am floating in a sea of wonder. I feel so connected to everything. I know that I am ascending and that I am doing what I came here to do. I see the oneness of all. It makes no difference if I am watching a movie, listening to a meditation (try Tom Kenyon’s latest 5 minute pituitary gland one…powerful! http://tomkenyon.com/transmission-of-light-the-pituitary-dimensional-attunement) or sitting in the yard, listening to the stillness. In all of it, I am connected. I am flowing my love to the planet and all her creatures, I am opening as the vessel to be the expression of our Creator’s love. That is the only truth…..that we are love. We are asked at this point to believe it deeply. We are asked to let go and surrender as a bird that leaps from the branch and takes flight. I am such a bird. My trust in the process is so complete as we move in these new energies and witness the way we are held.


A friend and I were sharing stories of how quickly things are manifesting for us. We think of something and find ourselves at the right place to get our needs met. I had knit a pair of leg warmers last winter and had never completed the last step of sewing up the seam as I did not have a yarn needle. Yesterday I found myself walking by a yarn shop and for $1.25 I had my needle and today I am wearing my pretty pink leg warmers. We do not have to go searching for things in the old way, we will simply find ourselves there. My sunglasses had a screw loose, I thought of finding an optometrist or lens place at some point. I stopped for gas and as I looked up, there was one right across the parking lot. In five minutes, my sunglasses were as good as new, even polished by the sweet woman who waited on me. Today I was lying on the couch looking out at the beautiful view of mountain and water and trees and started to laugh. I have been visioning living in a place with all these things and lo and behold….I am living in such a place! I may extend my stay as it is filling me with such joy to be here. I have a great deal as I am helping out the owner by changing sheets and cleaning a bit as vacation rental folks use the upstairs or downstairs for a weekend or few days. I move to the one where they are not and enjoy both levels. Mostly, I have been here alone and have delighted in my own company.

I was speaking with a friend who was wondering why she was not feeling social these days. She felt that draw to go inward but felt resistance. The old shoulds came in, “You should be going to this party, you will lose all your friends if you stop going out.” She felt lonely yet did not have the energy to be social. Our higher selves are pulling us inward. We are lonely for ourselves! Our god and goddess selves are waiting to be invited in. They are missing us and

we are missing them. It is a time to let go of anything that does not fill us with joy. To honor
ourselves by treating our time as sacred. We are in a sacred passage and if something is not ennobling our spirit, we can give it a pass. This time is precious as we are being transformed into the light beings that we are. We are being gifted with all that we need to co-create a new earth and enter into the golden age of peace. It is a holy time. I am savoring it. Part of my joy is this dear family, a mama and her two offspring that come up close to the house, where the grass is the greenest, to eat each morning. They stare in at me and I out at them. We exchange our greetings and feel the communion and peace. I have let go of anything being any way. I am so enjoying witnessing how things line up. It is a delightful play and I am so thrilled with the actors that are creating with me. I love the scenery and the props. I love the way the story moves and is responsive to each one’s input and gifts. I love seeing folks shine! I love the part that I have been given. I am allowed to improvise along the way and am finding more and more that I enjoy that freedom. It used to scare me, now it delights! I am learning to ride these new energy waves and it is exhilarating.

The Sacred Marriage

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What a beautiful day! Oct 1st and I am through the portal I saw shimmering for me. There is great peace here on the other side. In truth, there are no sides, only the oneness. Yet on a very real level, I have entered in. So quietly except for my sobs and my tones of love going out to the universe. Yesterday I was bathed in waves of bliss that washed over me. I turned to water and the tears bathed me so sweetly. Last night I had a profound experience. I wrote an email to some dear friends, asking them to witness me in what took place. This morning my personality self had a 2 second breakdown: “Why did you do that? What will others think?” She was engulfed by the waves of love that were present. I have received beautiful replies of such love. My guidance has asked me to share this with a broader audience as I understand that as I walked through this portal, I opened an energetic pathway that others may follow. It is part of my work so I share this with deep reverence for the process that brought me here and in awe of the beauty that awaits us all.


Sept 30th, I have been singing my soul song tonight in a most beautiful way. When I am in my bliss I sing these songs that rhyme (surprises me so!) and are love songs to my I Am Presence. I wish that I had recorded this one as it was so lovely. I have understood many of the pieces. Archangel Michael’s message given to me over 2 years ago that much would come about when I understood the nature of the ocean and the desert and could merge those two energies. I see it, I am the water of life spreading across the desert. I am the clear vessel flowing with the waters of life. All can be given drink who thirst. I am the living waters. The deserts will rebloom as the seeds that I have scattered are now ready to sprout. My tears are watering them. I am overcome with tears of gratitude to be at this juncture with our Mother Gaia and with our Creator’s heart. I understand my part, it flows effortlessly from my heart. My heart is on fire with this love.

When I say I, I say we, for we are one.

I have sensed a portal that I am to go through this night opening unto the 1st of Oct. I ask you to bear witness.

Tonight my father, El Morya and my mother, Mary are with me. The fairys and elementals are dressing me in the sweetest of costumes of light. I am to be wed to my beloved. The time has come. The flowers are playing in my hair and twining about me. I am banded in light and gossamer cloth. I have sobbed and sobbed that it has come, all that has past, all that has been felt and endured, all that has been won. Tonight it comes to fruition in this union with my beloved. I am purified, I am the virgin bride, ready to drink of the grail cup that has been held in the heart of hearts. Alpha and Omega are here to witness this. Omega it was who awakened me so many years ago in a letter of love for her dear Alpha. My woman’s heart was stirred in her pleading for all to honor her beloved and to recognize and accept his offering. She could not bear to see his pain. That was over 20 years ago and it awakened my heart to the depths of love. I felt her tone of love ring strong in my heart.

My mother, Mary dearest, hugs me to her and blesses me with her peace and love. These two, El Morya and Mother Mary stepped in two decades ago to play the role of parents to me in this lifetime. I am grateful for their wisdom, their teachings and for their love. They have rocked me through so many trials and dried so many tears. Tonight we all rejoice as tears of happiness flow for each of us. El Morya is content that I will have this man as shield to my back and strength to my heart. Mary’s smile reminds me to flow with the grace of the divine feminine. My heart has expanded so that I believe that all upon my mother must hear its beat. It will be the covenant of the sacred marriage. Everything that I am is come to this moment. Sananda and Lady Master Nada are here as are Saint Germain, Kuthumi, Kuan Yin, Gautama Buddha, Hilarion, Jesus and Mary Magdalene. And of course, my dearest, Archangel Michael. Michael is laughing as he remembers my request for him to send me one like him, in stature, looks and deed. Indeed, it is so he says!


Tonight, as I go off to sleep, I know that I am moving through time and space in a new way. There is a portal shimmering there for me. El Morya assures me that it is time and he is offering me his arm to walk me down the petal strewn aisle. I take these moments to shed the tears so that I can come to my beloved wreathed in smiles, able to contain the love that overpowers me just now. I must coalesce this watery self into form. I breathe deeply and my tears flow as blessing to this earth and each one on her, that joy may be a flame that grows ever brighter.

Finally, I am cried out, peace descends and I hold my head up high. I am ready to proceed. I have yet to see his face nor feel his embrace but Alpha winks at me and I know that it shall be the fairy tale of my many lives come true.

The music begins and I take my father’s arm to steady me as I am dazzled by the light that shines ahead. Oh, my beloved, I am come.

What I understand today as I integrate this new layer into my being, is that I am in union now. Yes, we are always with our beloved but he is with me in a much deeper way today. He stands with a hand on my lower back, my shield and buckler of light, bringing balance to my feminine self. I feel sovereign and whole in myself as I breathe in the fragrance of him. Oh the wonder of his presence. We have waited more than a few lifetimes for this reunion. On this 3D level, I have yet to meet him. I know that it will not be long now. How perfectly it plays out, the inner union

before the outer one. A deep peace and serenity has entered my soul. We can truly “rest upon the Lord.” Those words seem so full of the Christian way that holds no lure for me, yet now they sound in a new way. So much is new for me. I am being reborn in my Mother’s/FAther’s arms of love. I do indeed, rest there this day with my beloved. For in entering in union with him, we have created the trinity for the Creator is ever a part of all that we do. I am blessed beyond all measure.


The photo is of the dome in the Portland, Oregon public library. I laid down on the floor to take it as I was so struck by its beauty.

Divine Timing and Grace

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Another quiet day on the island. Had a nice nap in the sunshine on my log bench. The deer family was back with their beautiful big eyes focused on me as I awoke from my nap. Such gentleness. I was feeling the softness that is emanating from the earth. Saw it reflected in my world recently when I had a situation arise with a friend. I witnessed a distortion that was present where she was not vibrating in her truth. It occurred three different times (three is my number) and I got the message loud and clear that I was to speak to her. Uncomfortable…how and when to do it. How to speak in a way that could be loving and non-judging. How to honor her higher self while speaking with the personality self. I asked for guidance, to be shown the perfect time and for the words to flow that would be freeing. I then put it out ofmy mind. We were at an event together but the opportunity to speak alone did not arise. The morning after the event, I was packing up my things in my hotel room when she called. She said that she was guided in her meditation to call me. We had a wonderful talk, the exchange went well. The honoring flowed easily and understanding was reached. I saw how Spirit can line anything up anytime. Mine is to listen and allow. I allowed the timing to happen in divine timing. My old self would have pushed the agenda, in order to get past an uncomfortable situation as quickly as possible. By allowing it to unfold, grace was present.


Trust is so present in my moments as I sink into the knowing that I am in my perfect place doing exactly what is right for my growth at this time. How do I know this? I know this because this is where I am. This is where I have been led to. Lying on this log bench is my work of the day. I am dreaming this new earth into being. This deep rest of my physical body is informing me. I went into town today to find some cranberry capsules to help with a bladder infection. Wow, something I have not had in 30 years or more. I have not had any real physical illness in so long that I was taken by surprise. I sensed that my body was trying to move something and a couple of intuitive friends saw that it was part of the cleansing process that I am engaged in. That resonated and gave me peace. I am trusting my body to release any stored emotions in any way that she desires. I am supporting her as she does so. I love friends who help us see things, who help us stay aligned to our truth when we get lost in the illusion. Who witness our growth and affirm us in that growth. I am so grateful for them!

This is a stone altar that I came across in the woods. Such a lovely cloth of soft green moss across it, nature left its offerings of leaf and I added mine of stone and pinecone. I love being in communion with the elementals. Today I soared with the birds and allowed my heart to sing. I read this post from Yael and Doug Powell at Circle of Light :

Like a great bird on gilded wings streaming through an endless sky with freedom spilling from its wings and Love the currents upon which it flies…and always paired with another, singing songs of joy, streaming forth Love and blessing from every feather… while its wings trust the living currents to take it where they will that it may be the best expression of flight that it can…

This, dearest ones, is you. It is a symbol of your freedom, of that to which I lift you now as you are reborn in the Spirit. That which was your human identity now falls away, effortlessly and simply, as you take on being Love… as the focus of your life becomes the Real, the realms of Spirit, accessed through your heart. Your innocence, your purity, the glorious Love you are begins to appear as you, here on Earth.

I so want to have the faith and trust that the birds have. To be so present in the moment, that I do not concern myself with tomorrow but rather know that it will be filled as this moment is. We are in that betwixt and between point. We are ready to fly into each moment and glide yet this 3D world still takes money and things to make it work. There is still the outer focus that must be maintained along with the inner one. It is a difficult juggling act, staying present, yet making plans for the future. I am freer than most in this regard ( a blessing that I am mindful of each day) and yet there are moments which take me into the mind with its figuring it out propensity. We need both until we can drop the planning and plotting and simply be. I am on the leading edge of being, to open this gateway for all. I am so ready to simply fall from the sky like the birds I watched today, soaring and gliding and spinning about. I am at the threshold and it feels to me that the earth herself is holding her breath as we prepare to take this leap. All is being made in readiness. I breathe into my heart of love and know that all is well.

Going Deep

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The image of these stairs work for what my life is at the moment. I am walking down into the depths of my being. Just as you cannot see where you will land from this image, I have no clear picture of where it is I am headed. I am sitting in nature and allowing her to guide me. I have no fear of the dark places anymore. I have done so much clearing out, so much cleaning of my interior spaces that I can glide down the first few stairs with ease. I can look about and enjoy the scenery that I have created for myself. I have now reached a landing and face the descent into the depths. All appears misty and dark. I recall that I am light, I can shine my own light to see what has been neglected and forgotten. It is all about perception. I might have feared this excavation in times past, but now I welcome it. I want to release any aspects of myself that have been imprisoned. I want to comfort any parts of me that have been shamed. I want to bring the light of my truth to bear upon the darkness and to set it all free. Therein lies the joy of this task…freedom. Every part of me that I reclaim, every part that I see and acknowledge, allows me to breathe deeper. I feel freer. Once every fear, every pain, every hurt and injury is addressed, there is nothing to fear. I could leave this body tonight and be at peace. For my trust in my own divinity, is complete. We are all given this opportunity at this time, to choose freedom from pain, from suffering, from limitation and lack. Freedom is in the air. We are being gifted with such support to make this journey. Call upon your angels and guides and walk hand in hand with them down the staircase to your true self. Bring your great light to bear on all. Whatever you encounter, can be loved and embraced. There is nothing too shameful to come to our open hearts. The trick is to feel it completely. I recall a time in the first months after my divorce when someone’s guides gave them a message to deliver to me. They told me that it was ok to feel the pain and sadness fully. At that time, I did not understand the message and felt a bit indignant as I thought that I was feeling it fully. Oh, what a difference time can make. It took me another year, sobbing my heart out one night alone in India, to truly allow myself to look at the pain in my heart. To recognize how numb I had been. I could only take one step at a time and spent months poised on a step, unable to move further. Now I know the “how tos” of pain release. I know to open my heart fully, feel it fully in every cell of my body, and to take the deep breaths and let go. I give it to the angels and the violet flame to transmute it back to the light. I help my mind see that there is no need to recycle it over and over. I read a quote this morning about this:


“The pain was necessary to know the truth but we don’t have to keep the pain alive to keep the truth alive.” This is from Mark Nepo’s The Book of Awakening and he goes on to say; “As
anyone who has been wronged can attest, in order to keep the fire for justice burning, we need to keep burning our wounds open as perpetual evidence. Living like this, it is impossible to heal. Living like this, we become our own version of Prometheus, having our innards eaten daily by some large bird of woundedness.”


It is time to give up our woundedness, our victim hood, our sense of injustice. We have created everything in our lives to help us evolve. We were the ones who set it all up on a soul level and even chose the players in our play. So we let go of anger at anyone or thing and most of all, at ourselves. We played our part as well as we could at each point in the play as did all the others. Especially those who played the bad guys. Give them an extra round of applause as theirs was the more demanding role. It is time to forgive others as we forgive ourselves. Time to recognize that we all want peace and that we are the only ones who can give it to ourselves. Peace is an inside job. When I am at peace, the world will reflect that to me. When we are all at peace with ourselves, we will live in a peaceful world.

So descending the stairs is what this island time is to me. I am determined to uncover every last bit of delusion, illusion, damp and musty place in me. I love how brave I am to sit with myself and witness this process. To allow the space for all to be revealed. To melt into myself and to know myself as if for the first time. There have been tears of awe and gratitude for the beauty of this universe. For the generosity of my soul, for the way it works to bring me every trigger until I am trigger less. I want to stand naked before my own higher self, my mighty I AM presence and look her straight in the eye with reverence and strength. I want to merge with her and together merge into the heart of my Mother/Father God. I am ready to go home.

Home to a place that I have dreamed of in my soul. It is a place that whispers to me in the stillness. It is a place where I will be welcomed and known. It is the place that I have searched for all my life. I do not have to leave this body to find my home. It is in my heart and we are at a time in our evolution where we are free to create heaven on earth. Our mother has decided that she wants to evolve and become the star that she truly is. We get to join her and become the bright lights that we are. I loved this tree that I encountered, growing so strong and powerfully out of all the parts that have been cut down, damaged and decayed. Aren’t we beautiful in our ability to do this very thing? To take all of our suffering and our pain and use it to grow into the beauty that we are. We all know folks who have become twisted and stunted by their experiences in life. Yet, this tree shows us that there is another way and it is one of nobility and truth. We have the choice, always we have the choice as to how we will grow. I choose to see my life as a rich tapestry that I am weaving. I am grateful for every strand, some bleached white with grief, some dyed dark with blood, some so gay in their joy. All are a part of me, all are part of the whole. I choose to add my strength, my peace, my love to the whole of this earth. If it takes me turning over every damp rock on my forest floor and eating every worm found there, I will do it. I hold nothing back as I choose to be fully present in this stillness with myself. I am a warrior of the heart.

Cloud Watching

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There is always a bit of a tug for me when I leave Canada. The vibration is lighter there and easier to move through. This is the Peace Arch at the border crossing near Vancouver, BC. I love this saying: “Children of a common mother.” It is great when we get it right……we are all children of our Mother Earth. We are all children of our Father Sky as we come from the stars. Our dear earth is ascending out of duality and into unity consciousness and we are going with her. As we move into unity within our own beings, we make the transition easier for her. For we are her and she is us. How beautiful it is to begin to recognize the connection to everything around us. Today is a new moon, falling right after the autumn equinox. There has been a palpable shift in energy these past few days. Have you felt the fatigue that often accompanies a download of new energy? I did and have felt overwhelmed with the vibration of love that is permeating the air. We are witnessing the shifting of an age. It is amazing. I feel reverent, grateful, exhausted, emotional. unsettled, expansive, excited, quiet……so many different feelings. I watch all move through me as the knowledge that we are NOT our experiences takes hold on deeper and deeper levels. We are great beings of light having experiences. We watch them come and we watch them go and feel such compassion and awe for our dear brave selves that waited in line to get a spot at this grand event.


I arrived on Orcas Island yesterday. The ferry was late and it was a wind tossed ride as stormy weather moved it along. It was evening by the time I found my way to the place I had rented and then busied myself with unpacking and settling in. Felt a bit alone, strange place, dark, couldn’t find my flashlight to walk back out to my car to bring in my own down comforter that I travel with. (a girl has to have her own blankie!) Walked out blind as there was no moonlight with this new moon upon us. (found my head lamp in the car..yahoo, let there be light!) Listened to the wind in the trees. Felt my bravery in approaching new experiences and places. The night before I had been lying in bed in a motor home parked in a new friend’s driveway. I laughed at myself….all the different situations that I have been in. I have learned to not question much, to simply follow guidance but at times I get a kick out of where I end up! I have learned to be comfortable anywhere and breathe into the home in my heart. I have let go of the need to know much, I follow the whiffs of inspiration, show up with an open heart and watch what happens. I had spoken to my youngest son last night and he sensed my aloneness. I said, “I am fine. It just takes me sinking into it and then I am in peace.”

This is a tree from my last walk on Bowen Island. His coat of moss enticed me over and I found myself petting him. Ha, that was his plan all along! How clever of him to grow such a fine coat, so soft and luxurious. I love interacting with nature, talking to everything and listening to what they choose to share with me. I am so enjoying the feel of the woods here in the Northwest. Damp, deep and dark in a way. Fertile and feral also. Ferns and mosses in abundance. Deep shade and patches of sunlight. Bits of water splashing about. I can sense why my soul was craving this experience. So different than the bright rocks of the desert scape of Arizona and New Mexico or the hot inland valley of California with its dry scents of sage. These forests are speaking to what is fertile and wild in my heart. Someone wrote to me of my “fierce beauty” and I was struck by that phrase. Yes, I claim that fierce beauty around me. I claim it as part of me. The forests abound in this fierceness. A beauty that almost frightens as it portends a journey deep. The forests are allowing me access to new regions in myself. The shadows come alive and ask for appreciation and love. Isn’t this where we are with ourselves? We are embracing all parts of ourselves, we are going deep to find all the bits that we have shut away, thinking them too dark, too awful, too sad, too silly, too selfish, too nasty to be seen by the light of day and certainly, not by anyone else. The forests show me that it is time to pet the dear child who felt she had to control things in order to feel a sense of safety in the world. They are showing me to love my heart that loves forever where it has once loved. I am embracing all the places that I lied to myself in order to present an acceptable face to the world. I am embracing all of me that I abandoned in trying to fit into a marriage, an educational system, family and relation- ships that did not serve me. I am forgiving myself for all the times that I so harshly judged myself. The freedom that flows once you do this! The sense of compassion for yourself arises in all its beauty. It is the sweetest nectar to taste. All guilt and shame can be embraced and allowed to flow on through. Old energies that no longer need to be carried. Think of all the emotions that we have stuffed into our bodies over the years! Is it any wonder that our bodies get ill and out of sorts? We were never meant to hold onto emotions, they were meant to be experienced and let go of. It is time to clean out the cupboards, dump all the past due items on the emotional shelves. Give yourself a good housecleaning and you will feel so much lighter! It is joy, pure joy. And your delight in yourself and your body for all that you have put you through……amazing! I cherish myself so these days. I love my body and give her whatever she desires and tell her thank you, thank you, thank you, for all that I asked her to endure. She is so beautiful, so cute! I get such joy from her and in her. I dress her in cute things, cover her in scented lotions and soaps, give her rest and wholesome goodies that delight her. Our bodies want appreciation just like everything else in this world. A friend was telling me of someone who was losing weight for the first time in forever not by her usual dieting but rather by speaking lovingly to her body. Eradicating her negative self talk about weight and using her words and thoughts to love every aspect of her body. She was delighted to find that the pounds began to fall away as her body responded to her loving treatment. It makes sense to me. Harsh gym routines, diets, etc never made sense. Let’s stop the self punishment and begin the self celebration on every level.

Today I awoke to sunshine and stillness all
around. As the day unfolded, I realized that I did not desire to use the phone and after a bit on the computer this morning, it too was put away as I had no energy to answer emails or communicate with the outside world. This log bench out front called to me and it is where I spent much of the day. I had a blanket, a pillow and my wool wrap and I lay cloud watching. I was amazed at how quickly they shape shift. Small wisps would seem to be drawn to bigger masses, to join up. It felt like what is happening now as we are being drawn to our soul families, those whom are of like vibration. We are separating out from old duty relationships of family and friends that felt heavy, and flowing with the currents of energy to those with whom we have a high resonance. It was fun to watch it being played out and to feel a part of that play. I thought of the new educational systems that will arise. How cloud watching can be an activity that allows kids to expand their consciousness. Here I am at 55 years and I have never spent more than a little while watching clouds. Yet they have lessons for me. Every day, some part of nature is calling me to class, saying, “Look! This is important. This is what matters. Learn from us. Grow with us.” I am listening. This island is a place of deep stillness and it has lessons for me. I move into the quiet, knowing that a rebirth is at hand. I am so blessed to walk this path of mine.

Time Out

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Today was my last full day on this island that I love so. Here is the ferry that I will take tomorrow. The mountains were so clear today that it was a joy to take a hike for a wider view. It has been interesting to share some time with a couple that are house sitting my friend’s house. Tonight at dinner they were speaking about how they do not like to take time off as they get bored. They like to be doing all the time. They believe it keeps them young. This is such a contrast to my life of non-doing that my presence can be challenging for many. They use alcohol and nicotine to wind down their days and I thought how afraid we can be of ourselves. To be still and alone with one’s self can be a scary proposition. We are trained to keep going, to keep producing, to keep consuming, and if you feel a bit depressed, pop a pill or two and move on. To stop is seen as a failure, a red alert bulletin that something is wrong. We much prefer to maintain the illusion that all is well by the use of numbing agents like alcohol, nicotine, food, sex, TV…even reading can be an escape from time with ourselves. ( It was my drug of choice during my dark nights. Reading can be great…but it can also be an escape from our own thoughts). We make use of whatever can take us out of ourselves enough to allow us to keep playing our part in this giant game that is about to become unglued. Our society has allowed no space for a reset time. A time to step back and examine who we are in the moment. A time to be with ourselves in a deep way. A time to breath. A time to move out of time, to be so immersed in a tree or the moss covering the forest floor that a new dimension is entered. We allow only sanctioned time out. If you dare to take time out from the normal 9-5, you had better have an agenda. If you are going to volunteer in Uganda, that is worthy and noble. If you want to simply lie on your couch and watch the dust motes drift by…..that is seen as laziness. Yet the lying about can be the cocoon time that your self needs to become the butterfly. We have this analogy of the cocoon and butterfly and get it on one level but we are very uncomfortable with it on many others. We have guilt tied up with being non-productive. The guilt is a programming that we were given to keep us as obedient cogs in the wheel. Religions had a great deal to do with this as anything that was pleasurable or led to you knowing your own power, was labeled as sin. Today I participated with thousands of others in a meditation to release the sense of sin from all humans on this planet. (You can access these beautiful meditations at: http://www.childrenofthesun.org ).

We are not sinners, we are beautiful beings of light. If we allow that cocoon time, we morph into the butterflies that are full of beauty. In that beauty lies great power. This is the meat of the nut…..we are powerful beyond measure and that is terrifying to ones who have thrived by controlling us as well as terrifying to ourselves. We all carry memories of times past when we misused our power. We came into this lifetime, determined to use our power to uplift mankind and this planet. It is time to release the old fears. We have matured, we have learned our lessons. We are now capable of using our power for the benefit of all. We understand oneness. We know that what we do affects the whole. What we desire for ourselves, we desire for every man, woman, and child on this planet. How do I know that this is true? Because it is our nature! It is who we are!


Once we access our inner stillness, our lives begin to change. We begin to seek freedom and realize that time to be is true wealth. We begin to access our own power and see that we are

able to create our lives in new ways. We begin to take responsibility for the lives that we have created. We begin to see the perfection in the lessons and situations that we set up for our growth. Life starts to make sense. We begin to feel such appreciation and wonder at the underlying order of it all. We begin to let go of the illusion of control that we held. We begin to hear our own wisdom. We begin to trust ourselves instead of an outside authority. We begin to know ourselves as a part of the whole tapestry of life. We begin to feel our divinity. We begin to fall in love with the whole world. We begin to fall in love with ourselves.

Those last two lines seem backwards and yet for me, it has been much more challenging to fall in love with myself than it has to fall in love with the world. Self love is the piece that truly sets us free. When we can cherish ourselves as much as we do the environment, the starving children, the rain forests. and all other worthy causes…….we are home free. Because you see, we are the microcosm of the whole. So if you are living your life responsibly concerning the environment, recycling, signing petitions, taking public transport and all the rest but you are beating yourself up inside with words like: “I am too fat. I should be working harder, I am too slow. I am lazy. I should have handled that differently..I really screwed up there,” you are polluting the environment. So you may be taking positive actions on the outer but on the inner, by allowing toxic comments by yourself to yourself, you are sending out negative energy. Self love is therefore the greatest gift you can give yourself as well as the planet.

As the autumn makes its way, take some time to watch the leaves turn color, to witness their beauty as well as your own. You are so beautiful!

Happy Equinox!

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Equinox is here……the balance of day and night. The inner balance of our various bodies: emotional as we let go of triggers and move into our heart to express only love; mental as we become the observer and watch our thoughts from a place of detachment; physical as we adjust our diets and movements to reflect our newness; spiritual as we move deeper into our being and claim more of ourselves as our own. There is so much going on! And yet it is happening for each one of us by ourselves, with ourselves. I love that we are moving out of religions, gurus, and prophets and into our own knowing. The new earth is an age of experience of the divine personally. Each of us is opening and flowing with our own light. We are becoming sovereign in our own containers. We are flowing like this stream of water that looked like liquid light to me today as I took my walk. I have been here on this beautiful island for a few days. There are lovely hikes and woods to explore and I was in joy to find that today my body had rested enough to desire to take a longer walk. My old way might have found me being hard on myself for not taking advantage earlier of these walks. The new me is so appreciative of the rest that I have had, of the lovely views from the windows of this house, of my dear friend who has allowed me this space in her home, of the nurturing that I have received from the trees outside my bedroom window.


Self love and appreciation are pathways to the ascension. We are the ones who have to let go of the inner critic. We can see it for what it is. I am such a freedom lover as an aquarian that as soon as I saw that I had been programmed to imprison myself with toxic thoughts, I began the work of finding an escape route. I started by talking to myself like one of my children. I called myself, “love”. “It is alright, love. You are doing so well. ” Over and over I turned to loving thoughts when the criticisms came in. I had to reset myself from the patterns of guilt, shame and self consciousness. None of it happened overnight but once you are conscious of a pattern, it begins to light up in your brain when it is activated. You then have the opportunity to examine it and decide if that is a thought that you want running in your head. I was listening to a utube video that equated thoughts to energy. How do we want to spend our energy? So many of our thoughts are toxic or reruns that give us no return. These thoughts make us feel bad or anxious or throw us back into a victim role. We can chose to let them go, float by us with no attachment. We can decide to turn our attention to thoughts that give us a return, that make us feel good. We all want to feel good. We are made for joy!

I love the mist on the pathway today. Aren’t you just drawn to peer around that bend and see what awaits you? I feel that is where we are. We are in the mists, we cannot see clearly yet but we see enough to entice us to keep going. We are seeing the hearts opening around us. We are experiencing people reaching out to one another in new ways. We are seeing companies that have mission statements of benefiting all. We are seeing folks begin to focus on and tell the uplifting stories. We are feeling our own inner joy gush up like a spring.

I burned my list of what I am ready to let go of once and for all this powerful day of fall equinox. I am ready to let go of all fear. I am interested how by setting that intention, my being responds with situations to trigger any fears that remain. I am so grateful for this as I witness them arise, give voice to them and let them go with love for how they protected me at some point on my journey. There is no longer any need for me to hold them and my body wants to be light! I do not want any pockets of dense stale energies as I am ready to fill all my being with light.
I let go of all heartache and betrayal. I open my heart fully to every experience. I let go of the need for anyone or anything to show up in a certain way. I embrace it all in love. I let go of the need to protect my heart in any way. That does not mean that I do not set boundaries, I do. As that is a way that I love myself. I no longer will put myself in situations where I am not honored and respected for who I am. I choose to be treated well as I deserve that as we all do. We can let go of people and situations that drain our energy. There are no gold stars handed

out for allowing yourself to be attacked or demeaned by others. (I used to think that I was amassing a collection this way!) We have a responsibility to show others how we are to be treated. We can walk away from toxic people, thoughts, situations. We can walk away from societal norms that say we must honor our mother when she is not honoring of us. We can hold her in love yet choose to limit or close contact that does not feel good. Feeling good is the simple guidance system that we have been gifted with. Your body can tell you whether something is good or bad for you. I have learned to listen to mine and respect her wisdom. We are programmed to believe that we have to push it to exercise, to eat right, to get up and do. The surprising thing is, our bodies know what they need. If we allow it free rein, instead of turning on us, it will care for us in remarkable ways.

I can hear you saying, ” I would eat a gallon of ice cream every day. I would become fat. I would be lazy.” Who is saying these thoughts? I have tried the experiment. I have laid on my couch until I felt the stirring to move. I have allowed myself to eat anything that I desire when I desire it. What I have found is that you cannot eat junk food for very long before you crave vegetables. My body takes the rest she needs and I do not judge her if it is longer than my mind had decided was long enough. Isn’t it strange that we are taught that we cannot trust our bodies? They are a source of great wisdom and yet we have been programmed to turn their care over to the medical profession (who is benefiting from this arrangement?? Not you. The pharmaceutical companies for sure.)We wait for some authority to tell us what is good to eat and what harms us. This changes frequently and folks feel weighted down by all the advice that they are given. How about listening to your body to see what feels good? We are all individuals, each of us has unique needs. No one is the authority of your body but you. No one understands how it feels but you. When your throat tightens when someone throws their anger your way, when your stomach clenches at the thought of going to work the next day, when your head begins to pound at the thought of holidays with the family, when you gag after taking vitamin pills…….these are messages. This is your body’s wisdom delivering a truth. Listen! It is all so simple.

We truly can become like little children once again. In fact, we must to enter in, to enter the kingdom as our brother, Jesus said. We need to express our emotions freely and completely, we need to move about as our bodies desire, we need to allow ourselves to become lost in what we are doing as we are having so much fun that time disappears. We need to let of any idea of knowing anything. We can show up each moment and play with our friends as co-creation is the name of the game!

Today begins a portal of transformation through 11-11-11. Take advantage of all the help that is offered by the universe to step into the new earth at this time. It is like the greatest coupon arriving in your mailbox. Special offer, from now until 11-11-11, divine love is flooding the planet. Beings from inner earth and from the universe and beyond are here to help you ascend all that you need do is open your heart and ask to receive. How easy is that! There is even a guarantee, if you intend that you will open to the light and become more light…you will!

I see my light and delight in it. I see yours and filled with such joy. Turn your heart lights on!

Pink blossoms, muffins and Shambhala Masters

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Sitting in bed at 11:33 pm eating the remains of this morning’s delicious muffin. Last night I did not sleep much at all. I felt nauseous and out of sorts, the earth was moving on some deep level and I with her. Today I napped in the late afternoon with the feeling that I could sink into the bed forever. We are entering into the equinox, the time of balance. Am I turning upside down in mine? Many are feeling overwhelmed as they continue to push themselves to work that seems to have no end and schedules that allow no room to breath. This is happening everywhere as there is less staff and more work in most businesses. People try to keep up, to juggle all the balls in the air until eventually something gives. For me, I began to cry in meetings, cry in my office, tears of frustration that it was not possible to do all that was asked. For many it is their health that gives way and allows a way out. All strives for balance and what is not in balance will come to the fore for resolution. The old way of moving through the world will not be sustained in the new energies. This can feel frightening yet each moment offers the possibility of balance and peace. For me it seems that it all comes down to trust. Trusting that all will be well. The old way of trying to control it all is not working. Doing more is not the answer. Surrender is the name of the game.

The rain today is feeding my soul. As did these pink hollyhock blossoms, catching the raindrops and filtering the misty light through their petals. I am in this blue/green/grey/white world of forests, mists, and waters and then there is this wild pink! A shock almost of color that dances across my heart. I am a lover of pink. One of the things I loved so about India was the use of bright pink and orange together. I was just doing a meditation where they described the color of the love flooding in as pink-orange! Of course.

Today a friend called to ask me to vision with her. She began to tell me what had come to her to prompt the call. She saw us looking down at a “verdant valley”. Those two words triggered an outburst of sobbing. I was sitting in a cafe at the time but the tears knew no time. I could not say what it was but it was as if the words were a key that opened a deep recess in my being. Every cell in my body knew to respond to those words. We journeyed into a space of such beauty. She is the visionary, I the feeler. Together we see. We were asked to don our Shambhala robes. We were told that we had earned them and that they were eternal. More sobs. Shambhala masters were with us, greeting us and working with us. We were seeding our visions of the New Earth. The women were in a circle, then an outer circle of men. Light came streaming in the center of our circle. My free hand was moving, weaving the strands of light. There were babies coming in, we were holding them. Then the men bent down to gather the babes in their cloaks, guarding and protecting them. It was so beautiful as it was the new masculine, sure in its strength and clear in its role. The women were laughing and dancing, flirting with the men as they were free to play. The raising of the children was shared by the fathers as well as the trees, the air, the elementals. The babies were so protected and honored by all. I cried at the freedom for the young women, to dance and laugh and be in their joy. And I cried at the pride of the young men as they delighted in the women’s play and in their strength as the protector. The babies were so excited to be here, to be in this place of peace and joy. Codes of light streamed down from the heavens. The earth opened to receive this light with such reverence. All felt sacred.
The time is here. We are called to our roles. I feel drawn to the stillness to purify my being. To make sure that there is no distortion in my field as this template must be laid down in truth and in peace. All that is not truth, will be magnified so it must come through with purity and love. We have been witness to the distortions in Atlantis and other times and I cannot bear to have it end so. Every part of me is focused on bringing this vision through in its pristine wholeness and holiness.
I write and speak these things not to elevate my ego but rather to aid in my own adjustment to who I am. We are each beings of great light. We are masters or we would not be on the earth at this grand juncture. My personality self shies away from claiming my self hood. As I speak of these things, Shambhala master robes, being a creator being, crowns of stars…I am allowing myself to breathe into the vastness of who I am. I know that we cannot play small any longer. We must shine our full light out into the world. As I step into my truth, I widen the space for each one to enter into their truth.
Here is a fairy house I came upon in the woods. Isn’t it cunning the way the spider wove the roof and the leaves laid the carpet? My grandchildren will be able to play with the fairies openly, all will be seen and known. The delight of this knowing, fills my heart. The fairies are pretty excited too! They are ready to be seen and interacted with on a grander scale. All is ready to be seen on a grander scale. We are ready to be seen by others and most importantly, by ourselves on this grander stage. I love the costumes! We get robes of fabulous colors and textures as well as swords, crowns, staffs, unicorns and dragons to ride and crystals and wands to play with. We do indeed get to be as little children again as we learn to live in the moment. I heard Lindsey Wagner speak (the actress who played the Bionic Woman on TV years ago) and she said to watch little children emote. They are so dramatic in their tears and tantrums but then they are free to feel the next wave of emotion that comes if we do not stop the process. If we allow the expression, it clears and they are free of the emotion. I loved this quote of Lindsey’s: “Pain is a wave. Suffering is a sea wall.” That really hit home for me. It is time to ride the waves in our lives. We can be choose exhilaration or terror. It is all our choice. I am ready for the ride of my many lives!