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No kiss!

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This is a painting that I did of a twin flame couple. This image of the chalice of Christ consciousness being held by the couple embodying the divine masculine and divine feminine has been in my head for almost a year. My sister is experiencing a twin flame relationship (yes, she is a powerful creator) so I wanted an image to represent that. I would add a picture of my sister but not sure if she would allow it and it is too late to call so..I am going with this.

My sister and I had a lovely conversation today. She was feeling unhappy about something that her beloved did. They are pretty new as a couple, three months or so. My sister and I were both married for 25 years with the last number of years being ones of disconnect and sorrow. So, there are plenty of old patterns and stories to release. Peggy was upset that her love had not kissed her immediately when she entered his house. He had just finished hours of shoveling snow (they are in the Chicago area which had a big blizzard) and was sweating and wet. She went to touch his hair and he backed off saying that he needed a shower. This was a double offense to her. First no kiss and then she can’t touch him! She was not feeling good. He tried to rectify the situation, when he realized her upset, with hugs and kisses but she wanted none of it. She felt sad that it seemed that she had to tell him again about how important the initial greeting was to her. She wanted this relationship to remain conscious and not slip into the old normal everyday routine interaction that she had experienced in her marriage. She did not want to be the one directing things or reminding him of things. She and I had both played those roles for so long and knew that they were not healthy. Yet she did not wish to settle for less than she desired.


She felt caught in an old pattern of getting angry yet knowing that she was tired of that way of being. The mind goes into action mode: “I will show him. I will stay away for a few days.”
It wants to figure it out. It urges immediate action. Yet there is a new way becoming clearer for us. It is the way of non-action. We can sit with our feelings, observing our mind jump through its hoops, wanting to punish the other for a perceived wrong. We know that is game playing and everyone ends up the loser. My sister was able to recognize that her relationship was amazing yet would it be amazing tomorrow? If he could already forget the greeting kiss, what would drop away next? Our mind loves to play out these what if scenerios. It does all that it can to take us out of the present moment as it knows that is where our true power lies.
By allowing some time and distance, (this can be a matter of hours to perhaps even a few breaths) an expansion can take place and something better can come to the fore. Instead of this or that, a third option can be revealed. We can use short factual statements to keep us in the present: He did not kiss me when I arrived. Period. He moved away when I tried to touch his hair. Period. We do not add judgments or perceptions. That clears the field and allows time to look around. Her love was able to tell her that he was sorry about the kiss, he had been concerned about the entryway being littered with wet towels and clothes and wanted it to look nicer for her. He had pulled away as he felt sweaty and liked to present himself to her in a state of cleanliness and order. He was definitely thinking of her in all of his actions. So the initial perception that he was taking her for granted was not true for him. His actions reflected his care for her and his desire to honor her.

We were able to laugh when I said. “It is just a little knot. There will be more little knots as you go along but you can unravel them easily.”
Peggy laughed and said, “Yes, like the magician’s string where he shakes it and all the knots just fall away.”
” Exactly! “
We had both experienced the knots turning into huge tangled balls that became bigger and bigger until it had seemed that the rope had become a hangman’s noose. We both felt that we were fortunate to escape our marriages intact.

Now we can laugh and see the little knots for what they are and even delight in them. As they are all opportunities for growth, for more closeness, for an expansion in the relationship. No need to shut down or go into the old fear mode. We can see we are right on target, moving along, creating a life that continues to be more love. Becoming more love ourselves.
Ah….the beauty and peace of this outlook. It seems strange now that we used to punish ourselves so. Now we can move to greater and greater freedom. Aren’t we so beautiful? Aren’t we so dear? Sometimes I am overwhelmed by how dear we all are. Trying so hard to be good, to do good, to express our love. I love us all and I love that my sister and I can call one another and make these shifts in perception.


Surfing the Zuvuya (Mayan: surfing the moment and its frequency

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Today I intended to go to the beach and walk along the shore. As I was driving along Golden Gate Park, the green grass and trees called out to me. I kept going but finally pulled over next to the park. I could see the ocean ahead but the trees laid claim to me. I clambered over some roots and scrambled down the hillside that had invited me in with its deep shade and dappled sunlight. I found a path to follow past a fountain and pond with some ducks peacefully swimming. I passed a homeless person’s campsite tucked under a couple of trees, wound round another hillside until looking off to the left, a spot called to me. The ground was damp and I was not sure about lying on it. I turned in a circle to make sure that this was where I was to be. Huge eucalyptus trees surrounded a meadow that was partially planted with baby fir trees. There were tiny white daisies and a yellow flower poking from the earth. Various holes and piles of dirt were scattered about. Moles busy at their excavations.

I let go of the concern about the damp as I knew that I needed my whole body to connect to my Mother. I laid on the earth and relaxed as a deep peace began to fill me. Ah……a long sigh. I had so needed this. I need this daily contact and it had been too long since I had allowed myself this gift. I closed my eyes and let myself be taken in, breathing in the softness, the freshness, the aliveness. I toned my tones of love that arise when I am in this space. It feels to me that these moments are why I am here. This is my truth. This is who I am . A woman who lies on the ground and tones with her mother. Isn’t that a job description? Can you imagine a time when there will be jobs like this?
Wanted:Earth toner for city of San Francisco to maintain Golden Gate Park’s vibration of peace.

It feels that the peace is permeating everything these past couple of days…….moving through us. As I lay there, a mole poked his head out of a hole a few feet a way and peered blindly in my direction. I sat up and grapped my camera and tried to get his picture. (carrying a camera is new for me so that I can add pics to this blog) I squatted for a time close to his hole to see if he would re-emerge. He did not, there were so many other holes for him to explore that would bring him to the sunlight without a human witness. I felt blessed to have witnessed him when I did.

The other day a man walked past me on the street, naked except for his hiking boots, backpack and long flowing beard. A block further on and I almost stepped on a pure white dove sitting on the sidewalk. I had never seen this before. Had he appeared from a magician’s hat, just flown from a wedding? What was he doing at my feet on a city street?

I take it all as blessings. Blessed by the man who wanted to express himself in that way, blessed by the mole and the dove. Blessed by the gum nuts that filled my pockets from my walk. Yes, I cannot walk anywhere without collecting rocks, twigs, flowers, stems, shells, feathers. Any manner of natural thing will do that catches my eye. I take them home to lay on a table or carry them about in pockets. All are a part of the beauty of this earth life expressing itself. I felt at one with all this beauty and my heart sings its gratitude.

Clear skies again

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Many of you read about my melt down the other day. I was at the end of my tether and had asked to be “beamed up” by my buddies up there. As always, the weather changes and the storm clouds passed. Last night I was reading that there had been two solar flares on the evening that I was in deep despair. The article stated that it created feelings of hopelessness in sensitives. Now why did that make me feel better? It gave a framework for the energies which had felt so out dated and old yet there I was, stuck in the middle of them. I could now point to an exterior reason for my interior state. It reminded me of times before my menstrual cycle when I would feel extra sensitive and upset. When my period arrived shortly thereafter, I would feel such relief. I am not crazy!! I only felt crazy 🙂 It was my hormones sending my emotions into a tailspin. Thank God.


This last experience helped me to see that I no longer have to sit or be stuck in the energies. I can let them pass through me and transmute them into light. I believe that is what we are being asked to do more and more. Our Mother Earth is releasing the dense energies that have permeated her skin. We have dense energies stored in our bodies that are coming up for release. As we clear our lower bodies of the old patterns of heaviness, we help clear hers. I love how this works! We are the microcosm for the macrocosm.

I want to be more tuned in to the solar flares and solar winds that are active on our planet as well as the moon cycles. Fortunately there are people who know these things and report on them. Tom Kenyon just put out a beautiful article on the current solar winds tomkenyon.com/a-hathor–planetary–message and how to best navigate and make use of them. Energies of light are streaming into our planet and our hearts, helping us to awaken and realize who we are. I intend to be the still point and let the energies move through me and on out now that I have had a heads up as to what is taking place.

I almost said, “Hopefully” I can be the still point. I used this word when I was speaking to Chief Golden Light Eagle the other day and he took me to task. He said, “You are a teacher. You must be aware of your words. Hopefully does not bring you anything from the universe. It does not respond to hopefully.” He is right and I do know this and am grateful for the reminder. Our words and thoughts do create and I need to be more mindful of what I choose to create. We are masters and after eons of training, it is time to step up and intend and command into being the world that we wish to live in.

I am so grateful that I am in it with all of you beautiful masters!

Blossoming

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Coming out of a couple of difficult days into the sunshine of spring today. The weather does effect me. Friends have likened me to a plant that needs sunshine for photosynthesis. It is true! Today the sun was shining and I went for a walk with my daughter. We saw trees in bloom that lifted my heart. It is so amazing the way the delicate blossoms can emerge from the rough craggy branches. Seems impossible to me. How do those papery, fragile blossoms come from that rough exterior?


It made me think of our hearts and how they can become hardened and craggy. Yet they can bloom anew with an infusion of love. Love can open the most hardened hearts and allow the softness to flow again. The tiny tendril of love can begin its work, opening up and softening the heart as it grows and blossoms.

We are in a time of heart opening. The planet is being infused with so much love from our universal brothers and sisters. Our hearts are expanding and creating more room in our beings. I actually feel mine physically expanding in my chest. I can feel the contractions as it works to grow with these new energies. There is more room for me to go inside and pull up a seat. I like hanging out in there, looking around at the colors, meeting my higher self and other visitors. I can find a resonance with Mother Gaia’s heart from here. I love tuning into her heartbeat. She is so beautiful and it makes me happy to feel connected on such a physical level.

The line that has played in my head for the past year is: Let your heart light shine.
We can all walk around and turn on our heart lights! We are all in need of heart light. It is as important or more so, than sun light. Everywhere we go, we can visualize our heart’s light shining ahead of us, waking people up to their own beauty, their own goodness. See it shining out, moving through the craggy exteriors that people can present to warm the fragile buds waiting to bloom in each one’s heart.

Don’t you love that idea? That we can be nourishment to one another? We can provide heart light! Who knew? We aren’t really taught this. We can gift one another with an essential nutrient for our growth and well being. So come on people…all together now……

Turn on your heart light!

Mother Mary

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I have been a Mother Mary girl all my life. I fell in love with her during my Catholic upbringing. I only came to love my name last year, at the age of 54 years. It suddenly dawned on me that Linda Marie, which seemed so common for the 1950’s, was actually the perfect name for me. Linda means beautiful and of course, Marie is one of the forms of Mary. I am a beautiful Mary! The women who gathered around Mary during the time of Jesus were called Marys.


So…I was gifted with a small unusual rock from my rock man. It is so tiny, less than an inch in height. It was so strange the way it was formed. I immediately thought of a shrine for Mother Mary. I told him that I would have to make a tiny clay figure of her to place inside of it. I could hear my girlfriend laughing in my head as she would tease me that she feared if I had access to old bathtubs, I would plant them in the ground to create Mother Mary shrines. We have all seen them, painted sky blue with the statue of Mother Mary placed inside.

I was holding my small rock and thinking about the shrine. I found an medal of Mother Mary that I had rescued from an old jewelry box. I pealed the metal backing off of the ceramic painting of Mother Mary. It was a tiny bit too wide for the rock opening. I placed some gold foil inside the cavity of the rock and by slightly bending the painting, I was able to get Mother Mary situated in the rock. It totally made my day! I love her! So tiny and so perfect. It is my miniature shrine, very handy for traveling.

A little bit of creativity goes a long way to pleasing this heart of mine. I have to remember this daily as the act of creation is so satisfying.

Time out

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(turmeric on the pot from when the peas boiled up, not a dirty pot!)
Wow, I just dropped down into a space of nothingness. Do you have those times when you chose to retreat from the world? I have little daily connection as it is but even that felt like too much. I did not want to talk to anyone. I had had a couple of nights of little sleep followed by a couple of nights of very intense dreams. The dreams were ones that lingered. I knew their message of letting go, moving on. Yet the sadness or weight of them moving through me, was difficult. I was not able to stay in observer mode but felt taken down by the energies. I did not shower or dress. I stayed in bed mode, in my sweats and comfy clothes. I had thought that I needed a nap as I could envision things that I wanted to do, yet had no energy to do them. After the long, lingering nap I still had no energy to move with. I knew intellectually that a walk might help or putting on some music and dancing. Yet none of it seemed possible. I watched a movie on my computer…then another one to round out the day. I ate chocolate and simply gave in to the shut down that I felt. The day ended in tears of frustration. I felt so tired of things seeming to stand still. When would my life begin? I know it is here right now but it felt so long since I had had a sense of purpose and a vision. I could not feel my angels or guides, I felt alone and sad. I said, “Beam me up, I want to return to the land of love. This feels too painful.” I could see that these thoughts weren’t truth but could not get out from under them.


Today the fog has lifted somewhat. I am back in observer mode. I watch my slowness, my body not moving much (though I did take a nice walk involving some hills) and my mind not feeling very clear. I was able to make a pot of soup to nourish myself on this damp, overcast day. I watched another movie, connected via facebook a bit. Still not taking phone calls or calling out. Not sure what is brewing. Meditated, felt my heart expanding. Still the quiet and the stillness.

Have my markers and drawing pad out to begin a new project. I wanted to walk to the art store for some linen canvas to begin on but it was not in the cards. Everything sits on the desk next to me, waiting. I know that I will look back and see myself in this time and see the bigger picture. I pray that something is being birthed and that tomorrow I awake with the energy to meet it. In the meantime, going to have a bowl of soup and watch one more movie. Thank goodness for Netflix! Dusk descending…..that other- earthly time that feels melancholic to me today. Accepting what is today seems all that I can do.


Free ourselves from the matrix through our hearts

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I awoke with the words: “You are in the matrix but can free yourself through your heart. Remember this!”


Earlier in the night (yes I wake up at all hours of the night) I realized that I had been with my higher self who was orchestrating a meeting with myself. She was showing me how something would look from one perspective but I must understand it from another. Folks would say no but I had to firmly say yes and let it be, knowing the bigger plan.
It made me realize how topsy turvy this world has been. We have been trained to function in the matrix, not to free ourselves from it.

Look at what is valued and rewarded in our culture. It is producing physical things and honoring physical activities. If I write a book, run five miles, take care of my car, then I believe that I have value. I have the right to feel good as I have accomplished something.
If instead I lay on the couch and daydream, working in the inner realms of my being, it is seen as having no value. Working to heal my inner wounds, my places of resistance to the present moment, searching out areas of my heart that are not open, these are not given much value in our world. I have “wasted time” and therefore should feel guilty, and strive to not do it again any time soon. It has taken me years to value who I am in my beingness without an identity based on a role or occupation. I can recall lying on my couch in my first apartment of my own after my divorce and saying over and over to myself, “You are safe, you are safe.” I felt so untethered, so adrift with no anchoring points. Fortunately I had a huge redwood tree outside my window and he seemed to lend his strength to me or shelter me as the very least. I felt held by him at times.

I recall my older son telling me this years ago when he was a little boy who loved to daydream. He would often disappear and I went looking for him. He was sittting high up in a tree that we had a rope swing attached to. He was almost invisible, sitting in a comfy spot amongst the branches. I was calling him in to complete some task. He looked down at me and said, ” Mommy, it is ok to do nothing sometimes. It is good to just sit.”
I could not hear those words at that time in a meaningful way. But he was pointing the way as he continues to do so for me.

We are waking up to the fact that our inner reality creates our outer reality. This is true on a personal level as well as a planetary level. So we have it backwards! We have been struggling to change our outer reality from outside, through physical activities. Yet in truth, we have to change from the inside out.

I remember the days of working so hard, so many responsibilites and a to do list that never ended. I felt trapped. Time was always fleeting. Life felt dark and troubled. I believed firmly in the illusion before me and could not see any other realities or options except to grit my teeth each morning and go as hard and fast as I could until I collapsed into bed at night. Yikes! How I survived all those years of living that way is a sign of grace to me. That way of life leads to burnout and collapse which is what happened to me.

As we go within and connect to Source energy, we are renewed and inspired from our authentic selves. We can enter into timeless spaces. I read that one good determination of your mind set is if time seems to be moving too fast, you are caught in the matrix. If you feel that you have all the time in the world to take a breath, to move with grace, to offer a prayer, to flow through your life, you are in your heart. You are in the universal flow of grace and love that surrounds us always.

I am chosing more and more to live in my heart, to see with my heart, think with my heart. It is so much softer and more fluid. It is full of feminine grace. The old mind way of leading my life feels sharper and harder and more masculine. I know that I have been blessed to have this time out of time to move through this personal transformation. In many ways, it would have been easier to have a job, a role to label myself with. But, that was not to be my path.

These days I am trusting my heart more, trusting that as strange as my life may look from the outside, it is the one that I have been called to live. My higher self knows the reason behind it all. I do not. I will continue to trust my heart and follow where she leads me.

Riding the wave to a new perspective

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I love this spiral painting. My son, Gabriel did this during his year in Spain. He gave it away to some fortunate friend. Wish that it had been me!


Today my sister and I helped one another (yet again! have to love a sister) shift our perspective. She was telling me that one of the reasons that she wanted to spend Friday night with her boyfriend rather than going out with some girlfriends, was because if she was with him she would not smoke. She has been focused on quitting but had had a few cigarettes lately. She used the phrase, “I was bad and smoked.”

I told her, “You are not bad, that was not bad. It is neutral. Not bad or good. Just a cigarette or two. You are already done with cigarettes, they are on the way out of your life. You are not a smoker.”

Peggy could feel the ease of that, how she felt better by taking off the negative label and not judging herself as bad. Then she proceeded to return the favor when I spoke of loving myself and being ready to have someone in my life who also loved themselves.

I said, “I feel that I have healed that part of me that did not love myself . I had thought that I was done with those old aspects but I did bring Joe into my world and he struggled with loving himself as well as loving me.”

Peggy said, “That does not feel right. I do not agree with that at all. I think it was more about continuing an old pattern of being a caretaker. You wanted to care for him.”

That did resonate more deeply. I have been a caretaker all my life. I am loving myself more each day, certainly there was an element of that non-loving in that relationship on my part but it was not the major player. Hmmm…nice to shift and feel a lightening. To be gentler with ourselves. To accept all of our actions as moving us to more awareness, more love.
I was then able to see the beauty of my present situation, living as I am with two of my children. Certainly, motherhood represented a huge caretaking role for me. I did it with 100% of my focus. I homeschooled the three kids for eight years, was with them 24/7. Seems amazing when I look back. So now, I am with my son and daughter and we are enjoying stepping out of our former roles. Sometimes they are the ones caring for me and sometimes I am the one caring for them. Truly we are in that love vibration where we care for one another as we would like to be cared for. The roles have dropped away and my caretaking is focused more on myself. It is more balanced and feels so good!

I love how we are moved to embracing more of our truth, more of our essence. I thought that I would be here for a few days, it has been almost three months. I love being able to see how my higher self is always moving me to greater growth and awareness. Here she is, ( dear Sophia, my I AM Presence) helping me step out of an old ingrained paradigm. So instead of thinking poorly of myself for some reason, a simple shift of perspective can make it lighter and quicker to move forward.

We are all so dear! We strive to be good, to do good, to feel good. We can look at any situation from a multitude of persepectives. I am going to continue to search for the one that feels lighter and more joyful! That way I am adding to the joy of the world and not the weight.

The love vibration

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We are beginning to live in the “love vibration”. It is such a beautiful place to be! My sister called me this morning to tell me that she was craving a cigarette. She had given up smoking a couple of weeks ago and had been doing fine. Well, she had definitely felt emotional and extra sensitive. Today though, she was feeling pretty agitated. As we talked, it came to light that she had had a difficult encounter with the rental agent for her apartment complex. She has to decide whether or not to renew her lease in two months. The woman was very inflexible and curt. My sister’s aha moment came as she described the woman’s behavior. She realized that what had upset her so much was not the content of the conversation but the vibration. The woman was not coming from a space of love! As we exist more and more in this space of love and it informs all of our interactions with our dear ones, it is shocking to encounter the old vibration.


My sister and I are both fortunate to not be working in the world at present so we are gifted with this time of being surrounded for the most part, by those whom we love. That is where the majority of our interactions take place. As we all move more into unity consciousness and that sense of deep connection, it is difficult to return to the old surface level interactions. Our hearts crave deep contact and love to live in that vibration of truth and openness and caring. The more we live in this vibration, the more it spreads. We begin to accept it as the norm.

So rather than driving to the store to buy cigarettes, my sister realized that she could watch her reaction to that old energy and let it pass through her. (By this time she was already at the store and asking for a pack of Marboros.) So next time, she could take a different tack.

This is so powerful. Thoughts run through me and my old way was to act upon them or react to them. Lately I have been experiencing this in my heart. The man who I believed, (still believe? ) to be my beloved, recently put out a utube video where he is reciting a new poem while another friend is playing the drums and singing in the background. Hearing his voice hit my cells like a liquid river of light. Everyone of them, came alive. My heart was on fire. Amazing! I went through a bit of panic as a couple of friends can attest to. How can this be after I have moved to clear that longing and wondering about our relationship out of my system? How could it still be so alive in me and have such an effect?

Deep breath. Another deep breath. Then following my daughter’s advice (she is the athlete and body person) I moved the energy through my system. Ah…feel it, observe yourself feeling it, then move it through the body and release it. Yes. That felt good! I do not have to do anything about it. Yes, my cells light up when they hear his voice. I do not know anything about our relationship except that he retreated. I am at peace when I accept it as it is. I can watch my reaction but do not need to take any action. No, I do not need to call him. No, I do not need to hurt. No, I do not need to define it. (Yes, I was the one who wanted it all tied up neatly with a pretty bow! What is this messy ending?) No…there is something else. I can note all of my reactions and what came was that I felt love. My heart felt such love that he had created something beautiful. I felt peace as I listened to his voice and sensed a settling had taken place since I had last been with him. My heart could dance in love. I could be in the love vibration by choosing to reside there.
So, today I am taking up residence in the love vibration. Shine on heartlight!
I am sharing Joseph’s poetry as it is beautiful and feeds that love vibration in my heart.

Joe Plum Poetry and Oitancan “Oi” Mani Zephier

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‎(C)2011 Oitancan Zephier & Joe Plumb

Longed for community

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Yesterday the energies were shifting and changing. I could feel the electricity around me. A new male friend called me and said, “Good morning, Sunshine!” That started the day off beautifully! I have had little contact with male energy other than my sons for a long time. It made me realize that I need it in my life. It is time to open myself to this. So… first shift.


My older son called as he was walking to work. He said he did not understand this working life any longer. He wanted out but not sure how or what to move to. Just knew that it felt too hard. This was the first time that he expressed this sense of limitation about his work. Second shift.

A friend called and told me that she had gone on line to become an ordained minister who could perform weddings. I guess that there is very little that one has to do to accomplish this in California. She sees a new business potential and I see how great she would be at this. She is so intuitive and clear about seeing things. As she said, the 0nly drawback is that she might have to say, “This will not work out! What were you thinking!!”
She believes that we could make this a business together. The night before as I watched a movie with my daughter that showed a wedding scene, I had said that I would make a good wedding planner. I had said that I could see my friend and I starting a business together.
Third shift.

My younger son came home to tell me that he felt that he could not continue in his present job, it was too sterile, his creativity was not engaged enough. He just did not want to do it any longer. Fourth shift.

My daughter is finishing her month long yoga teacher training and at the end of the week, is ready to begin the process of marketing herself and beginning to build a fitness/yoga business. At the first of the year. she had allowed herself to take the leap from the known working world and move towards her heart’s desire. She is primed to shift into the new.

For as long as I can recall of this journey of mine, certainly the past couple of years, I have had the vision of beginning a community where love and creativity and connection blossomed. Not the old hippie community of old, rather a small endeavor where we would have enough land to grow our food and enough buildings to house art making and workshops of different sorts. I see a core group of people who live there year round and many others who come and go. It is part of a small town that we are connected to. It is the way of living that we know in our hearts is what we are meant to have. A place where we support one another and spark one another in creative endeavors. There is music and communal cooking and eating. There is a sweat lodge, there is a place for ceremony on the land. There is dancing and yoga. There are trees and a babbling brook. Yes, why not? I have always wanted the babbling brook! Of course there will be fairies and elementals of all kinds sharing the space with us.
Many people around the world have this. In our modern world of nuclear families, most of us do not have this. Rather we live in our tiny groups of two or three or four and often end up just two or one as kids leave and spouses pass on. I want to live with all ages surrounding me like my forefathers did with extended families living and working together. We are a tribal people. Of course, I want to choose my tribe! I am blessed as my three adult children are ones that are part of my soul family of choice. So we have a nucleus to begin. Others whose vibrations match, will be drawn to us. I can sense these vibrations coalescing and moving together as the time for community is now approaching on a planetary level. We will be drawn to our soul groups and what rejoicing there will be as we come together again!

Yesterday the energies felt alive! I felt the community wires humming. It felt as though it were being felt into being. Our hearts are what will create this. The kids and I have been speaking of it since the new year but now we are all being energetically pulled towards it. It feels like a living thing that we are being magnetized towards and it towards us.

We are alert to the signs around us and beginning to think of the steps ahead. How do I get a mortgage when I do not have a job? Perhaps the kids take out a mortgage on the basis of their jobs? They do not make that much…we have some capital to work with…snippets of ideas. I am new at this and it is unfamiliar territory but I know that the doors will open and I am ready to step through them. I know that my place already exists in some reality and that I can feel my way there. So, I will keep you posted. In the meantime, we stay in our heart space and feel ourselves there.