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Birthing the New

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IMG_6851I am coming up for air from the dreamy, depths that have pulled me in. I traveled far and wide on swift currents that held me in their embrace. It has been a journey of weaving liquidlovelight in patterns that unfolded as I swam in the crystalline waters. The tone has been sounded for the new to commence. It begins within our own depths, as the swirling action gifted us by the solar winds, the planetary bodies and heavenly hosts, works to bring all our muddy aspects to the surface to be cleared. What a blessing! Each responsible for our own ocean of light. Once clear, we can ask to swim in the collective soup, allowing our light to permeate and penetrate the dense particles, loving them back into the lovelight that they are. When I am thus engaged, there is no part of me available for reflection as all is used in service to the light.

IMG_6854 On one of my daily walks by the river, a newly born fawn, stepped into my path. I could not see the mother for a time, as she was lying down, recovering from her ordeal as her little one tried out her legs. Her fur was sticky and curled from her mother’s tongue washing the afterbirth away. I instinctively knelt down, as you do for a child, and she came mewing to nuzzle against me. It was a blessed encounter. I pulled some foxtail weeds that had become stuck in her coat as she repeatedly fell in the grass. Her mom and I exchanged words of delight in this new life. The fawn followed me as I began to walk away, falling flat on all fours as her spindly legs faltered. I stayed with her for a time, finally walking into the grasses to get her off the path. She lay down as I marveled at how perfectly her coat was colored to blend in with her surroundings. Only her black nose spoke to where she was. I spoke to the mother in gratitude for her sharing of her little one with me knowing that I had been gifted with a sign of the new energies arrival in my life.

falling flat

falling flat

I looked up deer totem and took the parts that resonated for me.

“A new innocence and freshness in about to be awakened. New adventures are just around the corner. Maybe the most effective way to summarize the lessons of these beliefs, is to say that only when we move through life in the spirit of love for all beings can we melt the barriers that separate us from others, from other life forms, and from the beautiful mystery which is our own magical and spiritual gift.” by Ina Woolcott

My thirty year life cycle of personal mothering has come to its end, my daughter flies off in a few days to begin new life on many levels. Mary Magdalene and the divine mothers came through to bless her and move with her. The lineage flows free. I am freed to expand into the universal aspect of myself that has awaited me. The timing is perfect as the firmament prepares to receive the new frequencies of liquidlovelight that are streaming in. This solstice is opening gateways and portals, long closed, as we take a giant leap in our evolutionary game.

IMG_6843I am being called once again to move with the slyphs of the air, to follow where they lead. My direction has been given, my trusty ally, dear Maxie (my nineteen year old car) has been given a tune up and the all clear by my mechanic. A few days of solitude will be given for me to center myself, gather and pack my camping gear and a bag of clothes and let go of any extras that I have accumulated in this year of settledness. The open road offers freedom as well as bringing to the surface some anxiety of the years spent in constant motion as I wove patterns of light across the USA and Canada. Those years were hard on my body, emotional as well as physical. I sense that this journey will be different, one of more ease and grace. I am so grateful for the knowing that has grown within, for the absolute trust I have in myself and the universe at large. I sense it is short term, this car traveling. A time to touch in and co-create with other members of my lovepod who are calling to me. The communities are preparing to be born. Our heart’s desires are about to come into fruition as the summer sun expands them into ripeness. Juiciness approaches. I have been stripped naked, allowing the light of our father sun to permeate my very core.

Gratitude dances me as my heart’s fire propels me. All is well. It is time and I am ready to play my part. Thank you for playing yours. We are love.

Energies Are Pouring In Like a Waterfall

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I love waterfalls and I am turning my perspective this morning from pressure into the giddiness I have felt standing under the force of one.

I love waterfalls and I am turning my perspective this morning from pressure into the giddiness I have felt standing under the force of one.

Today is the second day where I awoke feeling as though I am standing under a waterfall. The pressure on my head is intense and it takes all that I am to stand in this flow. We are being gifted with so much liquid lovelight, our old world is being melted all around us well as within us as the love pours in and the density is purged, up and out. There is only the allowing, the letting go of any attachments, and the standing grounded on this beautiful jewel of our mother earth.

For a few days I had felt the energy running in streams. It seemed that my fingertips were literally dripping light as the energy moved through. There are so many emotions on the move, the collective has decided it is time, we are ready to co-create this new earth. All the shame, the anger, the self judgment, the pain, the sadness of our life and lifetimes, is moving. Our cells are responding to the lovelight by purging the old dense energies that no longer fit in the world we are birthing. It may not look pretty nor feel comfortable as it is happening, but it is a time for rejoicing! Our world is changing in every way imaginable.

We are harmonizing our inner beings in order to harmonize with the whole. Be grateful for the aches and pains, the deep fatigue, the wild emotions as they are all physical confirmations of what is taking place. There are so many layers to this process and we are aware of only a small part of the beauty that is being created. Our soul is taking over the reins and we can surrender to our greater knowing, trusting that we are being guided to more of who we are. It is so freeing and exhilarating when I visualize myself standing under this waterfall of liquidlovelight!

I love the way the artist allowed the folds to flow in harmony. This is what we are doing so beautifully!

I love the way the artist allowed the folds to flow in harmony. This is what we are doing so beautifully!

Our victories come in small, everyday ways. A friend shared that the other morning, she decided to try on a dress that had been too small. As she began to pull it up, she felt a burst of happiness as it slid over her hips and she knew it would fit. She then had only to zip it up. The zipper got stuck part way up. She realized that for the first time in ages, she was living alone. She had no partner to assist her with the zipper. (Why would we create clothing that we need assistance to get into and out of? ) She really felt her aloneness and choose to feel the freedom of it, rather than the pain of the lack of a partner.  Next, the time constraint that she was under, kicked in and she felt her old pattern arise of frustration and anger. Her usual pathway would have been to pull the dress off, throw it inside out on the floor as she cursed it. Instead, she found herself standing in the moment, feeling all of these sensations, and breathing. She chose not to engage, she stood her ground. She relaxed into it and succeeded in unsticking the zipper and moving into her day, dressed like the queen she had just shown herself to be.

These are the victories. Each moment that we choose a new response that is gentler, kinder, softer, stronger. Those moments in her closet could have been the start of a battle. She refused to be drawn into the old ways. She stood for peace. This is how we are creating peace on earth. We are standing our ground in new ways. We are speaking and thinking gently to ourselves. We are honoring ourselves, one another and this beautiful planet of ours. We are acknowledging the blessings in each moment that arises. Well done! I am so proud of us all. Let the lovelight fill your being today and know the beauty that you are.

 

The Moments before Birth

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Beautiful full moon of August

My belly is bloated. For the past few months, my belly has risen with the moon and then flattened as the energies are absorbed and integrated. The thought went through me, “YIkes, I do not like having this big belly.” Then it shifted to how I felt when I was newly pregnant all those years ago. I was so excited to have the outer proof that the baby was growing inside me. I was delighted when it began to look like more than extra weight. I rubbed it, caressed it , crooned to it. So much of life is perception and the lens we chose to view the present moment through. During this recent full moon energies, I have chosen to love this belly of mine. I feel that I am about to give birth to a greater aspect of myself. It has been cramped for much of the full moon time. I fasted yesterday to see if that would lessen the cramping. That and a crystal bowl event I attended did unwind the cramping. ( I had not planned on attending an event as I was feeling in my hermit mode. My friend said that she was guided to tell me that crystal bowls would be there. My belly gave me an immediate yes, that I was to attend. I love how clear the guidance is these days.)

Sparkling cool water inviting me in.

Today I can feel the earth birthing with me. We are in a quiet space. A holy space. I feel the air dancing through the leaves in excitement. The ground is humming with expectation. I am resting in a place of joy. The elements cooperated with cloud cover and a soft breeze so that I could be in the sun. I swam naked in the pool of salt water and felt release. I am grateful for this space to be. I am so connected to my Creator. We are humming together in a new way. I feel the newness of what is in me, the enlivened energies that have been pouring in with this full moon. There is an element of excitement that I recall happening once the birth pains actually began. I can remember the joy flooding through my body along with the contractions. Holding both ends of the continuum, joy and pain, together. Knowing that the pain is what propelled the babe into the world. Surrendering to it with open heart, the sooner to hold the baby in my arms.

Looks like I am about to give birth, doesn't it? I feel such tenderness for this belly!

My heart is longing for this babe, this newness to present itself to the world. My body is my vehicle to take me there. Every cell in me says that new life is here. The rejoicing is filling the air. Yet I sit and lie in stillness. No desire to talk, did not feel that I could write until now. Words are not adequate to express the reverence that I feel. I do not want to engage in dialogue about this as I feel protective of this energy. It is coming to light the world. To change life as we have known it. I am so deeply in the process of it that to speak takes me out of the stillness. Just as it was when I brought a child into the world, it is consuming all of me. The outer world falls away and there is only the body and the baby in communion. This baby is speaking to me and my love is surrounding it in the softest of pastel lights. My body says that it will be soon. I had a couple of days of active energy attending to some details of this world, mimicking the nesting instinct of prior times. Preparing for what is to come. Now my energy is all drawn inward. My belly and me, rocking in our love.

The Lion’s Gate of August 8th approaches. Time is slipping away even as I state a calendar date. We are on the cusp of seeing these energies move in our world. The time of magic is at hand. Let it all flow through with love. We are being so gifted by all of life in every dimension. I have let go of everything, surrendered to this moment and been rewarded with this connection that grows deeper with each breath.

Rainbow light caught in a cloud to delight me today.

At the gathering yesterday, a woman that carries the Mary energies that I so resonate with, saw me. It was an extraordinary event for me to have someone see my work. She said the recent energies had opened so much for her and she could now see how I work with the earth, evolving as she does. Moving and expanding and flowing with the light. She thanked me and said, “Please keep going. You are opening a pathway for all of us to follow. We will catch up down the road.” I cried as it was such a gift to be seen. Another friend had recently relayed a message from the elementals that I work like they do, with the earth in ways that are not seen. Both of these messages have afforded my personality self comfort that in turn allowed a greater release of the little Linda. I felt these messages like my Father/Mother’s hand upon my brow, reassuring me that they are with me and are holding me in love as I hold this babe.

The patterns of the dancing leaves mesmerized me today.

I do feel the love of the universe pouring in for each one of us as we play our note in this grand symphony.  We are being called now. After so much preparation, we are at the ready. Sing out with full voice and a full heart. We are the fortunate ones who have front row seats for the birthing of a new age. We not only get to witness it. we get to co-create it. I am feeling the wonder of this tonight.

 

Emotional Cleansing

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I am in love with the mountains! Still takes my breath away to look up and see them standing there so majestically.

We are here. The shift of the ages is occurring and we are in the emotional cleansing stage. Fear is being rooted out on every level. In every moment, we are being given a choice, do I see this through the eyes of love or the eyes of fear? Our egos are out of control, acting out as they know that their days of holding the reins are numbered. Thankfully, Henri (my ego) took early retirement a couple of years back and Sophia (my I AM presence) has been in the driver’s seat. Henri still chimes in from the back seat on occasion but for the most part, he is quiet, enjoying the ride as he has found that he can trust Sophia to take the right road. Trust and surrender are the bywords of these times.

A lovely bench placed just at the point where I needed a breather on my walk.

I did some sound healing with a friend yesterday as she moved through some of this emotional cleansing. The divine Mother came through me (I have to buy a recorder for these times) and brought such comfort and love. She pointed out that all the escape routes that our ego has told us are the path to safety, are now a trap. When we do not feel safe emotionally we may try the food route, soothing ourselves with sweets or breads or whatever has come to mean comfort. Perhaps our fears have said that alcohol and its numbing quality is the route to safety, making the world a bit less intense, seeing it through a haze. Maybe it is pot or cigarettes, reaching for a hit of nicotine or whatever is in marijuana to take the edge off of the feelings. Perhaps it is anger, throwing up a wall that attacks anyone or thing that dares enter in. Maybe it has been isolation, staying behind the walls of your home, forgoing contact with others. For some it is hoarding, holding on to things to bring the comfort. For others it is consuming any product that promises to stave off death and aging. Consuming to keep up with the Joneses is the conditioning we have all had…..if you have an IPhone, you are in with the in crowd and you are safe. Others find safety in maintaining a critical attitude towards anyone who looks or acts differently than themselves. Some use religion as their form of separation and as a prescription as to how to live so as to escape sin. We are creative beings and have created many escape routes. All of these routes are ways to cope with…….what exactly? What are we afraid of? Of feeling, of being present with what is coming up from our hearts. We are encouraged and taught to run from our feelings. Numb them, quiet them, drown them, stuff them, disown them. Yet, none of these coping mechanisms works. Why would we continue with them when they do not work?

Holding the camera out to capture me looking at me. Look in the mirror and love who looks back. Say, I love you over and over and you will be changed.

I was so surprised to discover that once I allowed myself to simply feel the emotion that was present, it changed. At the bottom of every emotion fully felt, peace will be found. This is truth!! We are not taught this as it is the path to our freedom. And if someone is interested in keeping you a slave, they are not going to point out your path to freedom. Instead, they will suggest all kinds of escape routes that lead to a dead end. That keeps you numb enough to continue to play their game. To continue to work to live rather than to truly live.

So, our fears are showing up in spades these days to be fully felt. They ask for acknowledgement and love, as does everything. You can thank them for how they served you in the past when they helped you survive in some way…..and then gently let them go. It is time. We are at a crossroads. We are all being given a choice. Do we hold onto our fears and live in the small box we have created for ourselves or do we dare, strip ourselves free and expand into the divine being that we are? If you are happy with your fears and coping mechanisms, then you will choose to stay. But if you believe that you deserve bliss and ecstasy as core emotions, then you will drop everything in order to move to this new land that is being offered.

See how the swiftly flowing waters melt the snow and ice, you have to let the love flow.....it melts all.

The divine Mother showed us how. She said that the only place of true safety is to be found in our hearts. Drop into the flames of your own heart and allow yourself to be bathed in its light and warmth. When an emotion comes up, you find yourself a bit unsettled and reaching for your usual fix, stop! Take a deep breath, drop into your heart space and feel. What is there? Feel the worry, feel the frustration, feel the I am not good enough, feel the anger, feel the sadness. Feel it all. Give it voice, moan, scream, yell, make deep guttural sounds. Let the emotion speak. Using your voice is a powerful healing tool. Sit with the feeling, without judging it as wrong or bad. Allow it to simply be. See yourself observing the emotion. What you will discover is that it will change. Nothing stays static. It will cry itself out, yell itself hoarse, eventually it will quiet. When it does, you will discover a river of peace that is always flowing through your heart, you may have never allowed yourself to come to its shores. But it is always there, waiting for you. This is the gold, this is what all the distractions and coping mechanisms can never provide. Seek this river. It is the path to your freedom.

A year after leaving my 25 year old marriage, I finally allowed myself to feel my grief fully. I was shocked to discover this river. I remember lying on my couch and being simply amazed after a storm of tears that seemed to have no end (could I cry for days??), to find myself sitting by this river of peace. I have forgotten it at times, fell into illusion again but it draws me back. Now I live on its banks, bathe in its waters, drink from its depths. It flows through me in ever widening pathways.

New age graffiti found on my walk by the river. Love it!

This is not the time to play small, to continue to live in the old way. We are being supported so fully by the Earth, our Sun, the Moon, the Angelics, our Galactic families to return to the wholeness of ourselves. We are multidimensional beings. We are gods and angels in human form. We are birthing the new human, blending our starry nature with our human one. Do not allow this opportunity to pass you by. Reach for your truth, put aside the coping mechanism of choice and go into the sanctity and safety of your heart. A new life of unimaginable joy awaits. I have glimpsed it and know that it is worth everything that you have to do to get there. As Archangel Michael told me a year or so ago, ” Everything that you desire is in front of you. Anything that you have experienced up to this point in your life, the greatest joy that you can recall, is but a shadow of what is to come. Do not look back!”

My heart is leading the way into this new light. It shines so bright. Be as the wise men of old and follow that star in the sky. It is leading you to the birth of your divine self. Let nothing stand in your way. Oh, what beauty you are!

Feeling our Mother

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I have posted this painting of mine before but as I look at it today it has new meaning. I am feeling this intense energy of our Mother. She is unwinding her coils of stuck energy, just as we have been.

I just checked and it has only been three days since I lasted posted. It feels so much longer. Much healing has occurred. As I completed the recent emotional journey, my body went into its journey. I have had a bad cold, me who has not had a cold in years. I have read reports that flu like symptoms would become prevalent as we reset our bodies’ workings. I had gone with my younger son to San Francisco for the day to see the annual flower show at the art gallery where arrangements are made to interpret a particular painting. It came on the heels of a mostly sleepless night. The drive took an extra hour due to fierce rains. The crowds were enormous despite being a weekday. After a couple of hours, we were fried and decided to head home. My body began to feel worse and worse. Fortunately my son decided to spend the night. There is such comfort in knowing that someone is there when we are ill, even if we do not call upon them, we feel their presence.  I almost woke him at one point as I was in such pain. My cells felt like they were on fire. It was very intense. By morning the head and chest joined in for a full blown cold. I was shown a picture of the energy stream we created as we drove there and back and mingled with the throngs. It was another confirmation that if you feel an impulse to do something…trust it. Logically it did not make sense to go that day…..the rain storm, the fatigue but on some other level, it was just right. It was important. Trust is the name of the game for me.

We saw these flowers in red, green and this vibrant yellow! Amazing

We are all doing so much clearing. I am clearing my energy field so as to be a better transmitter or conductor for the pure lovelight that is flowing into the planet. That way, I can hold and move more liquidlovelight…yes it is real stuff! No accident about that name coming to me. I am meant to allow it to flow with ease through my body. This recent emotional and physical cleanse, clears the channel so that it is in better working order. I can feel the earth as she is in the throes of her birthing pains. She has 7 billion of us on her, each carrying their weight of issues. When you are weighed down with fear and anger, (at others but mostly at yourself)  you are a weight that she would like to throw off. For all who have gone through childbirth, you might recall the way you felt when anyone touched you with their own needs or offered their idea of help. You were so deeply in the process of birthing……you wanted to throw them off!  When you love yourself, express joy and appreciation, you are like a feather on her. You can even go from

huge wall hanging of gold flattened bottle caps...loved the rippling waves of it. A tapestry of metal.

being neutral like a feather, to being a help if you act as a conductor of the love energies…..like bringing the ice chips at the right time, or supporting and rubbing the back. It is our job to tune in to what our mother needs. She cannot spare the energy to tell us, she needs us to simply do it and be it. That support. You can ask to align your heart chakra with hers and offer your beams of love to her. You know how powerful that can be, to have someone holding you in love. I recall a friend making her first video for a worldwide audience. She asked me to sit and beam love at her for the afternoon’s taping and that is what I did. It was a solid thing that she could draw upon as needed.

We are all responsible for clearing our fields. There is no energy left for healing another, trying to move another to a new level of seeing, nor continuing relationships where we are not seen or respected.  It never was our job though we were taught to use our power in that way. Our sole job at this time, is to shine our light  for all we are worth. That means, cleaning the lens so that the light can be seen more clearly. Clearing the emotional body of the old programming of I am not enough, all comparisons, all judgments of self and others. Letting go of duality in all its myriad forms. That is being conscious in every moment: “Does this thought elevate others or myself? Does this thought bring me joy? Does this thought or action ennoble myself or others?” We are creating our world together. We are creator beings. I read a wonderful article about this by Peggy Black and her angel team:  http://www.therainbowscribe.com/thegrandrebirth.htm She speaks of the power of our imagination when combined with our emotions. These are our creating gifts. My son summed it up after reading this as: imagination+emotion=our genius moments! I like that. She speaks of how worry is the distorted use of our imagination and gives some powerful exercises to turn this around.

Such creativity in interpreting the paintings. I loved the dark, fluid tree form!

There is a huge letting go…of relationships that no longer serve us, possessions that we do not use, activities that do not uplift us, any way of giving away our time or energy that does not feel good! Our emotions truly are our guides in this. I have a reoccurring theme in my dream space. I hear this message: As the chaos rises, so too must your inner core of peace and calm. You have been prepared for this. I can feel that there are more earth changes ahead and I am told to see it is necessary in the birthing and to hold to the larger vision of what is taking place. When you are in labor, you do not need anyone freaking out because you are exhibiting pain. You do not want someone saying, “Oh my, this is awful, you poor thing! This should not be happening.” That does not help. You want to be surrounded by folks who are calm, centered and offer soothing words of support like, “You are doing great!” Who hold the vision of the beautiful baby to come. Our mother is birthing herself anew and the world to

lovely scene of spring flowers

come is of a beauty that we cannot imagine. Already it takes my breath away and I can only feel its presence as it makes its way down the birth canal. Wow!!! Hold to that vision of beauty. When you hear of earth changes, know our mother knows what she is doing as do all beings who may transition from the changes.On a soul level, they have agreed to this. Offer prayers of support and love but do not stand there adding energy of fear or upset.  Birth that beauty in yourself. Do you truly see that as you birth the truth of your own beauty to yourself, you allow others to see your radiance and you gift our mother with so much.

Wild and wonderful!

My sons had an encounter with an older gentleman sitting outside the local store. He could have been mistaken for a vagrant as he had a weathered countenance and appearance. They sat and had a conversation with him and it turns out he was a retired professional football player. He said that he could see that they were of “we consciousness” rather than “me consciousness”. He shared that he was in town for the passing of his mother and what a heart opening and sacred event it was for him. As they went to leave, he said, “You are both so sparkly!” As we stand in our truth, we are seen by those who have eyes to see. Our light is shining as we birth our higher Christed selves into this form. This is a time of magic.

A bit of green in honor of St Paddy from the stairwell of the art museum.

Oh, speaking of magic, Happy St. Patrick’s Day!! Truly take in the wonder of where we are and savor these holy moments as we go through this shift of the ages. It is all sacred. It is all divine. Including you! Take a moment to expand into the love that you are…….and feel the magic.