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Exhausted and Grateful

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Love this sign on the bridge I walk daily...no jumping off allowed! We are crossing the bridge into the new. Once you set foot upon it, there is no turning back.

Love this sign on the bridge I walk daily…no jumping off allowed! We are crossing the bridge into the new. Once you set foot upon it, there is no turning back.

Did you hear and feel the crowds of spectators cheering in the stands? We did it. We have accomplished so much with this Vernal equinox/eclipse. For myself, this past couple of weeks was the culmination of every lifetime since I first incarnated on the planet. All hands were on deck as we worked to allow the greatest clearing possible for every man, woman and child. We all felt the intensity as triggers excavated the muck and mire from our depths, dredging it to the surface to be illuminated and consumed by our heartlight. I certainly felt flashes of anger that held the fire of a dragon, desiring to scorch everything in its path. The test was could I feel the anger and not judge myself for my feelings? A friend assisted me with a beautiful demonstration when we went for a walk with her dog. She is a peaceful being but would bark loudly if anyone came close to my friend’s car. The dog was protective of her space. My friend shared how when she had been in her moon time, she would “bark ” at anyone who came into her space. That might appear as bitchiness but she framed it as her ” bark” that alerted others to stay out of her space. She honored that part of herself as she claimed what she needed at that time. How refreshing! I know I spent time every month beating myself up for “barking” when truly I needed my space. Her way was full of grace.

This last week, I witnessed the highest possible potential being searched for in every moment, for each of us as we move forward. Truly awe inspiring, affirming for me, how deeply we are loved and cherished.

Crystals from the gathering, gifted by a friend to go out with each one, where they feel led to place them in the earth.

Crystals from the gathering, gifted by a friend to go out with each one, where they feel led to place them in the earth.

Today I am exhausted. I awoke to stillness here in my former home. So grateful for the familiarity and beauty that offers a peaceful respite from the gathering I was called to be a part of. I felt gratitude for my friend and former hubby for allowing me use of his home for the weekend. I had had a dream of him tearing out the bushes and plants I had planted, smashing our son’s sculptures that decorate the gardens. I knew it was a further loosening of my connection to this home a letting go of old patterns, of all that no longer serves. The thought flowed through of turning back the clock, wanting to move back into this house and the former partnership, after all, he is softer and more aware these days. I have not had this thought since the divorce. It was as fleeting as a breath. I thought of the years since, the money spent on travel, on assisting my children to find their path, on assisting others. That money could have secured me a home of my own. I would not be living this transient lifestyle. How I appreciate my mind! Our minds can be intense in their role, imprisoning us in the old through regret, shame, guilt. I had not felt regret in all these seven years but it surged through, seeking the cleansing fires of love. Tears flowed washing the emotional wave to the shore. Emptied of self, of form, dissolved in the sands. The next wave lifted what remained and returned me to the ocean of love that is my home.

The morning before, after a mostly sleepless and pain filled night (the body feels so heavy in these energies) I awoke from an intense dreamscape. I was carrying a little baby in my arms. I was opening doors, searching for the parents of this baby. Each door was an opening into a different dimensional space…astral, celestial and so on. None the one I was seeking. Until I opened a door where two men were present. They both felt familiar to me. One came forth and kissed me. We shot in a spiral of energy straight to Source. My eyes flew open wide and I exclaimed, ” Who are you? ” he said, “ I am Adam. I sm your beloved.” I asked him whose baby I held. He told me that the baby was ours, birthed together in another dimension. It was a power filled dream. Adam, the first man of Biblical tales or the Adam Kadmon body blueprint we are to inhabit. It left me full of wonder and echoed my knowing that my heart’s desires are swirling in my field, about to be made manifest.

Sitting on a throne nature offered me!

Sitting on a throne nature offered me!

I see myself using my hands and heartlight to create form. In the shimmering landscape of my heart, all is malleable and desires to co-create. This reality has been dense, difficult to move. Where we are headed, it is fluid and form arises and dissipates in response to our thoughts. I have known this for ages but the knowing is becoming more visceral as the frequencies support it.

I am lying here in appreciation of my courageous heart. This has not been an easy path. I have arisen each day, opened to my guidance, following it on many difficult pathways. How beautifully I have walked it! Today as I feel gratitude for each of you, your exquisite hearts of love, I bow before my own in reverence and love.

Traveling Up The Silver Cord

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A friend said that she saw me lying on a bed of pink rose petals. I could smell them about me.

A friend said that she saw me lying on a bed of pink rose petals. I could smell them about me.

Here I am in wonder at the newness all around. Yesterday I awoke after twelve hours in bed and went for a walk at the park. I returned to bed, spoke with a friend who described an experience that started the tears. Memory gone but the essence of her experience echoed within me.  I had been feeling weepy and fragile, not anchored in any way. In bed, I found myself disappearing. I felt my energy being drawn up and out through my silver cord. I felt the word, dissolution. I could not speak, only witness. After a time, I had to get up to use the toilet and made eye contact with my daughter and son. They brought water and sat with me. I could see them in their shining forms, so beautiful. I asked for my shimmering purple sari to be laid on top of me. I felt myself leaving and was at peace. I knew all whom I love, would be fine. Could feel some fear in a couple of the family, asked internally about this happening in front of them in such a dramatic way. I received the answer that this was part of their expansion.

I traveled up and up until I was with Source. No words, only love. Mother Mary came and pulled me into her lap and rocked me like the small child that I was. Archangel Michael and El Morya were with me. I felt no fear. Thy will is my will…….my internal mantra. There was an assessment, my body temple so fatigued….could it go on? Every cell was depleted, empty. New form needed. El Morya spoke of our work together and the plane from which it would begin anew. I saw aspects of myself, like diamond lights shimmering, coalescing in various planes. Dimensions are different than what we think, our vocabulary so linear and confining when the truth is so much more. I observed myself, heard that there would be a trade, my old self dying, disintegrating here and going back to Source for renewal and regeneration. New aspects came into light form, millions of diamonds, gathering and traveling down the silver cord. So much more of me descending than the aspect ascending.

Wonderful shapes floating by, all saying hello.

Wonderful shapes floating by, all saying hello.

Peace and surrender, unattached to anything, anyone, any outcome. Knowing I was in the hands of my Creator. Holding Leopold, my lapis skull in my hands, as he was a steady presence throughout the experience, our love so deep. Felt each heart who loves me and felt my love for them. Drifted in and out. Had my son call a dear friend who journeys with me. She reassured him, told him I was a golden tree, like in Avatar, with light filaments at the ends of my branches. I was bringing through a new frequency…..love might be the word yet unlike the love we have known. She set to work, anchoring the golden threads into Gaia and my son assisted. I saw how this frequency was so pure, so golden……so necessary for our next step. All were to be bathed in it. It was important that it be completed by today as the new moon tomorrow, begins a new era for earth.

A recent grid of crystals and a Georgia O'Keefe print from the flower/art show we visited.

A recent grid of crystals and a Georgia O’Keefe print from the flower/art show we visited.

I gave permission for my form to be used to see how this frequency would affect others. My body almost did not withstand it, yet it did with the new aspects flowing in to anchor this beautiful light. I have known myself to be one who brings in new frequencies, test driving them, so to speak, before they are released for all. At these times, I am very much alone on the human plane and held so lovingly on the etheric planes. I am grateful for my surrender and trust which carries me so fluidly upon its back. It was not always this way. Often fear would arise, a sense of deep isolation at the unknown. The peace throughout this experience was palpable. At some point I encouraged my family to go out to dinner as we had planned, allowing me to bring more of myself in, in stillness.

I was able to speak with the dear hearts who support me through this, all being co-creative endeavors at this point. They anchor and hold me as I take the strands of light and do what is mine to do.

When I was in Colorado recently, I had a precursor to this event. I was lying in a meadow, under a lone tree, looking at the mountains, sky, snow and sun. I saw myself as a crane, flying in a spiral upwards. I flew into the sun, bursting into flame, welcoming the fire with all of my being. I watched myself come out, carrying flaming flares in my mouth. I dove to earth and wove the flames about her, over and over, sun to earth, earth to sun and back again. I was weaving burning ribbons of light into and around her, in a grid of light.

Now, I have anchored a flame of love that will bursts hearts asunder like a roaring fire. All is set, all in place for this new era to begin. I feel completion on every level. Our family template of love was set as the five of us slept under the same roof for the first time in years as my daughter returned. Our harmony and love, an imprint of the new, set in place.  A work of thirty some years complete for me.

Today this body asks for rest. Much is still integrating within. I look in the mirror and welcome all that I am into this temple who has served me so well. The imprints of trauma have been scourged with the flames, I feel hollowed out and yet, filled.

I know nothing except wonder at the love. We are so loved. We are so cherished. Breathe that in today. I love you all.

Dark Lord Dissolves in All of Us

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Mount Shasta reflected.

Mount Shasta reflected.

The magic of Mount Shasta continued over the Thanksgiving holiday. After our feast, we pulled cards and I received, Wonder. That has been my word of late as I witness it unfold all about me. The next morning, we went to see a dear friend. For a couple of weeks, I had had the sense that my friend and I were to help her reclaim a part of her essence. It took the third member of our trinity to bring it about as well as the magic knife that I was gifted. As I used the knife to cut away an old energy that felt sticky and sludge like, I received a download of information. What was coming off of her, was also coming off of the planet herself and so many on her. It was a shell that held physical pain and limitation. Mother Sekhmet and her knife, shattered it. I knew suddenly that a part of my friend’s soul had been captured by a dark lord and hidden in another dimension. The knife was able to retrieve this for her. We are in the time of retrieving all of our soul aspects that have been hidden. We have to let go of the old programming to make room for more of our beauty and truth to land in. As the old energy released, it sought to attach to any of us there. We used the charcoal/platinum crystal bowl to clear our fields as well as the knife to cut away all falseness that any of us held. We cautioned our friend to treat herself as a newborn baby, with great gentleness as it would take a few days for this aspect to anchor in. This meant that she had to say no to some guests who were planning on coming as well as events she was to participate in. We are called to honor ourselves when we are deep in transformation, and not dilute it. In this way, we open a field that steps outside of time and allows gifts to be brought to the fore. We honor our I AM presence by being present with it as she/he descends more fully into our physical forms.

This felt like the interdimensional aspect of the knife cutting through.

This felt like the interdimensional aspect of the knife cutting through.

On the drive back home, I felt the dark lord. I knew that he and I had been battling for eons of time, playing our roles of light and dark. I saw how his energy had worked through many in my life, at times attempting to end my life. I looked at him in his fierce guise and invited him into my heart. I stated my intention out loud and my “elder sister ” of a friend, felt a “No” rise up in her. She then heard, “It is ok, she can handle this.” All of the mothers who had graced me with their frequencies of love, opened in my heart and drew him in. It was the most exquisite feeling, melting all the dark into the liquidlovelight. Oh my! Laughter and tears as I knew him for the white knight that he is. His brilliance lit my heart like a floodlight that burned layers deep. He presented to my mind’s eye, all the ghastly images that he had used in the past, to frighten me. We laughed together as I now knew them to be masks which he hid his light behind. I saw the reverberations of his removing his mask and letting go of that role. He is off a stature that is other dimensional, I felt archangel and yet, beyond that. Certainly, all of earth, felt his change. So much shadow was released into the light of the sun. The earth felt the lightening as did many on her. I could see his former energy released from those who had worn his mask for me. I saw the quaking as their beings felt the release and the subsequent void it created.

My friend's Tibetan temple guardian statue, named Wee-To. He is aligning the knife with his truth.

My friend’s Tibetan temple guardian statue, named Wee-To. He is aligning the knife with his truth.

I have spent the last few days, dancing with this being. Oh, the love we have for one another! I honor him for his strength and courage to play the dark role, leaving me to the easier one of light. To stand in the truth of the light we are, is a gift beyond measure. I have held a protective mother’s comforting arm about all who are feeling this shadow aspect depart. It can be very unsettling and scary. Knowing that all of nature abhors a vacuum and seeks to fill it, I set my intention, with the Mothers, to hold a shield in place until each soul can call in their own beauty and I AM presence to fill the void. I am privileged to play this role along with so many others on the planet as we act as midwives or birthers of the new frequencies. I am grateful for my sister beings who I work with, as we open ourselves in full trust of one another, to act our parts. I am grateful for my dark lord, white knight……beautiful being who now dances with my soul. The illusion is crumbling, we are on shaky ground as what we believed to be true, shatters to allow in the new light.

Remember that home is in our hearts, there is nothing in the outer world to support us. Surrender and let go, knowing that we are held always in the Creator’s arms. Our mothers are here, singing a lullaby. Allow yourself to be carried on the wings of their song to the ocean of your own truth. May all beings awaken to their own beauty, may all beings know peace. (my heart’s perpetual song.)

The elemental with his O mouth mirroring my wonder.

The elemental with his O mouth mirroring my wonder.

Over skype, I showed a soul sister in Scotland, the gifted knife. She saw the elemental face peeking out with his own sense of wonder. I love this new world that takes all of us, the elemental, angelic, galactic kingdoms; combining and co-creating our fields of light, to see the fullness of the beauty that is there. I love how we hid the jewels of truth so well, intending that it would take three here, four there and a pair here, to unlock the codes, to turn the keys. We wrote this play and have reached consensus that it will indeed be a fairy tale with a happy ever after ending. I have always believed in them and now I know this one to be true. To the wonder of it all.