These photos are from the Zen center. Aren’t you excited just seeing the brushes? I loved how the teacher kept these toys for the last day along with the big sheets of watercolor paper. It was the reward after sessions of small brushes and computer paper. You may not be able to tell but my arm is de-lighted as it made that swirl and held the biggest brush in my hand. FUN!
I chose this photo of the circle and that swirling movement as I am feeling a part of intense spiraling energies. Seeing so much stuff coming up and needing time to integrate, drop deep into my heart and allow the energies to flow. I had to cancel plans to leave today to head north. I am simply in need of rest. I have to honor my body and its needs. Breaking old patterns once again to state to myself that I am my highest priority.
Emotions rise more quickly to the surface when fatigue is present and can carry me along with them. I know not to resist these days, to allow the flow whether it is anger or sorrow. I prefer to be able to witness rather than be carried along with the tornadoes that have swept through me! So there has been surrendering. There is so much light coming into the planet and so much density being released. I have felt the deep sorrow and anger of the feminine moving through me the past few days. Wow! Big energy and it has swallowed me like a river at moments. Cry, sleep, eat. Down to the basics which is what happens when I am going through an expanding period. Not able to write or talk much, simply surrendering to what is. Allowing myself to align as a portal for the energy to move through as well as the divine love and peace to anchor in. We are being asked to let go in a big way as well as hang on through this phase by focusing on peace in our hearts.
A friend helped me this morning as I was describing this anger moving in me. He said, “View it as an emotional rash. You have a rash. Stop editorializing the whys of the rash, a rash will run its course. Knowing about it will not do much other than deciding how to deal with the itch.” Now that made me laugh! Oh, I simply have a rash. So today I am going to take a nap and watch a funny movie as my way of dealing with my itch. This thought totally changed the energy from, “His behavior makes my blood boil!” to thinking of a rash that needs soothing. Whew……took the heat right out of it for me and put a smile on my face 🙂
I love friends and the ways that we can help one another shift and grow. Another friend called this morning and we were able to confirm some timings and movements that we both feel are happening. It is fun to find the puzzle pieces coming together. Another friend called yesterday to tell me he will be in town and also his plans for the coming months. I said, “you are following me, I am planning on being in those places also!” I am enjoying witnessing how the players are being gathered. Our families of light are gathering. My heart is getting hits of the joy and beauty just around the bend. This allows me to sink more fully into the present moment and see the beauty in what I am feeling and releasing. Much more than things of this present lifetime, rather we are letting go of sorrow, anger, frustration, fear, despair(the list goes on) from all of our lifetimes away from home.
Gratitude for it all and now, time for my nap!