The photo shows how the flowers are meant to express the painting. Tall, elegant bouquet of white to go with the elegant lady in white. How fun is that! Imagine a whole exhibit!

Interesting day. I began by attending the 7am Spiritual Warrior class at the local yoga studio. I was the only student. The instructor and I chanted through our chakras and meditated. I felt peace and joy. He said that he had spent the last 25 years with his guru and was now taking this information out into the world. He said a few things that did not resonate with me, about asking for the light to descend and how his guru could do that but others might not. I said, “We can all invoke the light. We call it forth as we are masters.” He invited me to a retreat with his other classes this weekend for the full moon and equinox. I had put out the intention of wanting to gather with others this weekend so I was interested that this invitation came to connecting with other like minded souls. The guru aspect felt old to me which seems to have the effect of making me tired. Ah, a good clue when I am in old energies.

I had a lovely conversation with my elder son about the feelings of joy and well being that we were both experiencing. He was finalizing his leave from his job to have time to be in nature and attune more to this next phase of who he is and what he is called to. He is a druid of old and feels the nature spirits calling him. We both felt high from our conversation. He was delighted how the universe was supporting him to make this move by providing a partially paid leave of absence for a period of months. He was full of gratitude and excitement. He could now be fully engaged in his new role on the planet.

Read of earthquake being predicted for this weekend in California. I live in San Francisco so it comes close to home. Feeling the intense energies coursing through my body, need for extra food, rest. Anxiety, head, body pressure had been building. Yet, this overwhelming feeling of well being coursing through me. Knowing that I came here for this time, to be a force of calm and peace. To be the still point. Knowing that it would never be as hard or as lonely again. That despite earth changes, we were out of the density and moving into oneness. A sense of elation at that thought. A feeling that I am in my right place and prepared for what is to come.

Instructor from class this a.m. stating that the heart chakra of the planet had been moved from India to the West Coast of North America. Recalling being given the message in Sedona that I was to head to San Francisco to connect a heart line with my daughter and a friend to Hawaii and Mount Shasta. Told that my daughter was one anchoring the heart in San Francisco. When I was shown on my travels that I was free to once again return to the west coast, I heard; “Flow the rivers of forgiveness along the coast to hold it.”

I was to meet a friend to visit a museum to see an exhibit of floral designs created to match some of the paintings. Truly a special exhibit. I watched myself do some unusual things: get in for free by posing as this friend’s wife at his behest, leave earlier than I wanted to as the others wanted to go, and eating lunch in a dark interior space when my soul was craving the sun outdoors. Observing.

Had a walk in the park and was very tired when I arrived home. I had a fun phone conversation with a friend who loves to play and dance with the energies. She said something that resonated again for me: “I am done learning things. I am here to play and dance and breathe.” I know that it is in being in my joy, that I am of the most service to life. My heart has been on fire these past couple of days. an almost exquisite pain. It is so present in my chest, heartlight. I am learning to shine my heart light! That phrase has been with me as my inner theme song for about a year now. I created a piece of art around this theme. Now I am actually experiencing it!

I watched some sense of judgment appear about how I had conducted my day. “How could you get out of alignment so quickly! You have to tune in to you, no one else’s agenda.” I watched these thoughts arise. Felt them go through me, recognized them as thoughts, not who I am and let them go. The whole day felt dreamy to me, like I was being led along with almost no will of my own, carried on some stream. Again, I observed all this like a spectator.

Saw my daughter for a few moments before she was heading off for a long weekend. She was feeling very anxious. We talked about grounding, staying in her heart and taking very good care of herself, nurturing herself. Quiet evening with my younger son. We had pizza and cookies and watched a funny movie. We talked about pulling back some of his energy from work to focus on his creative endeavors. Reflected back his own power and influence to him and why his boss might feel threatened by his creativity. Spoke of his movement from the 40 hour a week to fewer hours as a transition into the life he is dreaming into being. Fun to then read an article on empowerment from Steve Rother and the group that he channels. http://lightworker.com/beacons/2011/2011_03-Empowerment.php

Listened to an activation from Children of Sun http://www.childrenofthesun.org/index.php?option=com_content&view=frontpage&Itemid=1

that was very powerful for me. It spoke of stepping out of duality this equinox. We are in a new time, being birthed as new beings. We have lived in this duality for so long. It spoke of polarity and how if I have a strong belief about what is good, then in that, I am activating what is evil. They are the extremes on a continuum. I have been observing myself feeling neutral about all the happenings in the world. I do not watch the news or videos of Japa

n or anywhere else so the images are not in my mind. I wondered at myself, was my compassion gone? Yet, I can stand embracing Japan and shine my heartlight and know that it is a searchlight, it is an immense power. It has moved me to tears and to awe. The activation asked us to accept Lucifer into our hearts and thank him for his role in creating the duality that allowed us to believe in our separation from Source. He and Archangel Michael are brothers who played the opposite ends of the continuum, the light and the dark, and are now merging as we embrace unity consciousness. This took a few inbreathes to absorb yet I knew it as truth. I surrendered my limiting beliefs and watched as so much came up to be released.

This new way of seeing the world, through the lens of neutrality is exciting something in my core. I feel the vibration of the truth of it for me. So if I am not radiating peace, as I do not want to activate its opposite, war, what am I doing? How do I drop my old programming? There is only one answer. It is love. I am love. There is no opposite to love. I do not have to send light, I do not have to send healing. I do not have to figure it out. It is so simple it makes me laugh!

I am love. I go inward and connect to my Mother/Father God and their heart. I am a cell in that heart. I feel that connection and move my personality out of the way. I allow the love to flow through me and I use my will to amplify it. I am literally turning my heart light on. It is staying on for longer periods of time. I believe that it will stay on non-stop with my focus. I am love. It is what I am made for. I am good at this. It is my joy. It is my delight. To be love, no matter what anyone else is doing or being. I chose to be love today.

Interesting day. Conclusion: no groups for now, sunshine means nature time, quiet loving time with my kids is enriching. Small world=enough for now. Time in my heart is the new playground.

Yesterday I went to a kundalini yoga class. My lower back had been aching for the past few days and I thought that a class focused on breathing would be just the ticket. When I arrived, most folks were seated already and the open space was right in front of the teacher. I took it, but wondered about it as I was a total beginner. She assured me that I was right where I needed to be. The class was focused on the navel point so consisted of core work. There was a great deal of leg lifts and exercises that were not in the best interest of my back. I modified somewhat but had a knowing that it was too much for me. Yet I did not leave nor stop. Ever the good student, I continued. This is where I stepped off the path of caring for and honoring my body. She was clearly giving me a message that I did not heed.

This is a photo of our family dog, Darling, who passed away two years ago. She lived up to her name as she was a darling girl. I wish that I had a photo of my friend, the white dog. Maybe we will meet again.

This morning I received a phone call from a friend in Colorado to say that there was to be something unusual in the sky over California at noon. Hmmm…sky was completely overcast but I decided to check it out. First I went to the grocery store and then the produce market. Manning the checkout, was a Norwegian man who I have visited with before. It is so nice to encounter friendly folks on your errands. I was happy that his was the line that I had chosen. He was talking about his 103 year old grandmother who is at present on a trip to Spain with his sister. She is traveling about and enjoying her life at her advanced age. He told me how difficult it was in Norway after the war; there was very little food and many were hungry. His father had caught a large salmon for which the children were in a high state of excitement. It represented food for a number of meals. His father cleaned the fish and to his dismay, his grandmother told him and his siblings to take the fish to a neighbor’s house. Members of that family were ill and had need of food. He had said to his grandmother, “We cannot afford to give this fish away.” She replied, ” We cannot afford to not give it.” This man recalled the lesson that his grandmother had given him with so few words. He later heard folks talking about the gift of the fish when his grandmother was present, but she never uttered a word that she was the one who had gifted it. He recalled that they had opened the outer door and left the fish anonymously in the space between the outer and inner doors to the house. He considers his grandmother to be his spiritual teacher.

This stone is so beautiful that I had to pick it up to come home with me. It looks like it has codes written on it that I might be able to decipher. I chose this image because it reminds me that we are each unique and therefore comparisons are not healthy nor helpful on our journey to our truth. Each of us carries codes that when unlocked, add to the whole picture of humanity. We are each so beautiful.

Comparison…it can really take you out of the moment. I had some moments today of wondering what I am doing. It is if I suddenly see myself and can make no sense of this life. I have a dear friend who is working so hard, trying to make money. I am lying here, hours of time at my disposal and yet I cannot seem to move. We seem to be on the opposite end of the spectrum. Her working all the hours of the day, me with no fixed schedule, able to create my days yet my energies do not move towards much of anything. I can recall dreaming of having a few hours of free time open to me. When you work so much, the only relief seems to be sleep.

Both of our lives feel surreal to us. Like we are walking through our lives with some small part of ourselves. It feels as of the greater part of me is somewhere else, involved in a much more connected way. Truly it feels that we are between worlds. Trying to stay open to signs and what it is that we are learning or needing to release. Wondering how long this shall last before we shift into the new world in a grounded way.

I am speaking with so many who seem to be experiencing this strange sense of displacement. Folks are going about their lives but are sensing that the old energies are not holding anymore. My friend was laughing about her training week at her new job. Ten hour days and then being sent home with homework each night. Weekend comes and you are meant to be earning your gold star by taking your huge binder home to study. She found it funny as we talked about how we both would have complied (at least taken it home for appearance sake) years ago but how silly it all seems now. What is this, giving all our energy to make a living? The individual being an economic resource to be used by the company. People are rising up throughout the world, saying no more to this kind of exploitation. So…as a collective we recognize the old energies are not working, and are searching for the new way to be. Yet the new is not anchored in as yet. There is this lag time where we are straddling both worlds. It is not comfortable and so we are learning to be comfortable in the uncertainty. A challenge, to say the least.

I have to remember that the only valid comparison is me to me. Today I had to remind myself that I am staying tuned in, that my path does not look like another’s and to find the gratitude that I am given the space to play with these new energies. I have to trust that passion will come back in my life from this neutral zone. I am not unhappy. I feel relatively peaceful. I have moments of bliss and joy. Well being is moving more fully into my body as I sense it coming from the ethers. I know that it looks like the very opposite on the outside, earthquakes and volcanoes erupting, yet there is this wave of well being streaming in.

Our world is changing right before our eyes. We are witnessing the dawning of a new age, the Golden Age of Peace. We are here helping to create it. All pretty new to us as we are only getting on board with the realization that we create every aspect of our lives. Many still reject that idea and cling to blame or victimhood. I know that I lived in that landscape for a long time. I was tempted to say too long but it was just the right amount of time for me to wake up to a new way. So to move to the place that we believe that we can create a peaceful, harmonious. joyful world is a big stretch. I am reminding others and myself, to take baby steps and encourage one another along the way. This is BIG stuff that we are doing. We are earning our stripes in an entirely new way. We have focused so much attention on the external world and have little in place to acknowledge the internal journeys that we are now embarked on. The internal landscape is scarier in many ways as we were not given flashlights to shine into our own darkness. We have been entering blind and find ourselves tripping over all manner of things. Gradually the forerunners are passing out lights and providing tools for us to navigate this new land. Soon the lights will be turned on and the streets clearly marked.

In the meantime, congratulate yourself each day for what you faced. I was proud of myself for recognizing why a certain person’s behavior was pushing my buttons. Once recognized and integrated I could then observe her behavior and know that it was not personal to me. Once that knowing takes place, my heart opens and I can connect to the pain behind the behavior. So my feelings switched from irritation to compassion. I could then be generous in my support of her as I realized the need behind the behavior. We all have our places of fear and restriction. It is wonderful to have friends on the path who you can ask, “What am I not seeing here?” People who you can trust to love you enough to shine the light on your shadow aspects when you are not able to.

Validate your friends as they take steps to be authentic in their lives. I realize that is one of my gifts and one of my greatest joys..to validate people. I had thought that I could start a business doing just that. Listen to folks tell me their stories and then validate them for their courage in walking through it all. We are all learning to be warriors of the heart.

I am proud of myself for allowing the energies to shift, staying with my feelings today when my mind wanted to go down an old road. I am trusting that this day of lying low will bring me to the next thing that is on my path. I know that the inspiration will come and tonight I am trusting in that divine timing. This head pressure and fatigue will lift. I tune into my heart, it expands and is calling me in. There is my answer for this moment.

The 9th wave has hit and the love is streaming in. What a day of delight! I spent the day with a dear friend who I had not seen in over a year. We had such a day of drinking in one another’s spirits. While Maxie, my car was repaired, we went to the art museum and the cafe, talked and talked. I gained clarity and greater information about some of the happenings in my life last fall. I like how Spirit will provide that information as we talk or write. Suddenly an insight will be present that was previously hidden. I am so grateful when this happens and for the friends who do this for me by activating something in me by their energies.