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Discernment, What is My Path?

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The mountain continues to give me clarity. Yesterday was interesting. I had not slept much the night before, read a book in my tent until my headlamp batteries died. Energies were shifting and I could not settle. I spent the afternoon with a couple of friends. We did some intense work together as one woman was releasing some heavy attachments from a relationship that she had recently left. It echoed what I had experienced formerly and as we all spoke, we could share common threads and support. That is one of the beauties of sharing, we open the door for others to not feel alone on their journeys. We can validate what someone is experiencing and by acknowledging that their intuition is right on, we allow one another that space to step out of the pattern. Freedom can be had. It was beautiful to witness and be a part of.


So my learning came as we went to the Headwaters of the Sacramento River to wash our feet and to fill our water bottles with the clear, clean water. After a time, I felt ready to leave. I was tired and wanted a nap. I was driving so instead of simply stating my desire to leave, I waited around. I went for a walk with one woman into the woods nearby. A man came along, wanting to show us more of the pathways into the woods. We followed and it became a longer walk than I was up for. I felt a sharp stab of a feeling calling me back. Almost an anxiety like one of my kids needed me. I did not immediately turn around but continued to follow as the pressure to go back grew. Finally I said, I need to return. The other friend who had remained at the headwaters, had been sending us a message to return as she was concerned about the energies of the man we had met. He was a taker of energy in a strange way.

I saw how by not caring for myself when I was tired, I was spacey and not in a clear space to articulate my needs and be aware of the energies about me. It was a beautiful wake up call to listen to and honor that voice inside above all else.

This came into play later as I contemplated a board meeting that I was to attend today. I had been asked by a woman, who I admire, to be on her USA board of directors for her non-profit organization. When the idea was presented as building a community here in the USA, I thought it was community like I am desiring to co-create. I was so excited as I thought that her was an opportunity to advance that plan. But her focus is different. I found myself not wanting to read bylaws and go through all the rules of building this organization. It felt heavy to me (this is a good sign that I am in the wrong area!) I wrestled with the feelings of letting go of a commitment that I had made once again (I have done this a few times in the past couple of years) and trying to discern what it was that I really wanted. I saw that my avoiding reading the materials and the difficulties of doing conference calls from cafes and such with limited internet access, was clearly giving me some information. This commitment did not fit with my life. I saw that my ego had been flattered that this person who is one of the leaders in the spiritual movement, had asked me to be a part of her organization. So, that is old energy, feeding the ego! I can let that go. I need to feed my truth, my path. I can only follow where I am guided. I have been cut free in so many ways from the regular world and I see that is necessary for me to hold the vision of the new. This is my work and it does require my focus and commitment.

So, today I wrote my resignation letter. My heart felt a bit heavy in the doing but now I feel the freedom in the release from an obligation that did not fit. It is a dance, we step here and then there, trying to find our flow. Each day, there is more to learn and discover about being our authentic self. I am grateful for the learning and the opportunities to continue the dance!

Settling in at Mount Shasta

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I have slept my first two nights at a lovely campground just outside of Mount Shasta on Lake Siskiyou. I can see the mountain peak from my picnic table and that gives me great pleasure. Yesterday I met a new friend who took me to a quieter access to the lake. We swam and sunbathed and chatted. So nice to share the afternoon with such a dear heart. I had first camped 15 miles south of Shasta at a state park Making the transition to Shasta was a bit confusing in the heat of the day with many different reports of whether it was advisable to camp on the mountain at the primitive sites. Snow still makes many of the

areas inaccessible. I opted against isolation and cold temperatures to this more moderate setting. You see I am learning…it does not have to be hard! That was the old me. This campsite/resort is close to town, there are other folks around, beach and store nearby, lake where you can rent kayaks and canoes and my campsite is on the back loop so backs up against the forest. I can’t see any other campers from my site. The women assigning me the site was a bit concerned about me wanting the back loop, thought it was too isolated for me on my own. I assured her that was my idea of heaven. She said, “well, give a loud shout if you need someone and there ought to be someone close enough to hear.” Lovely how she wanted to care for me.


During the process of finding this campsite, I went through a range of emotions. I felt brave to once again be out charting waters, having no idea what it is I am looking for. I felt a bit weary of this nomad life. I felt a responsibility to have it all figured out for my son, who had joined me as well as for friends who are coming in next week for an event. I know that I am only responsible for me but the thought was there. I felt fatigue as I adjusted to the altitude and mountain air. I felt a sense of chaos in the town itself as I tried to find my way around. I felt unhappy that I was receiving no further guidance to help me make my way. When will I give up this notion of finding Shan

g-ra-la? My personality self is ready for a little cottage to call home with a garden out back to play in. Yet my soul keeps following this mysterious calling to my greater home. I know the journey is important but I began to wonder that perhaps two years of journeying is enough. I thought of all the lovely places that I had been offered to rest for a longer stint of time and yet left. Why? Why did I go on when I could have been comfortable? These are some of the thoughts that swirled through my mind.


Ah….my son booked on out, back to spend a couple of days celebrating his girlfriend’s birthday. Watched abandonment issues come up…and go. Once I got my tent set up and settled in, peace returned. Birds are flitting about the campsite, children’s voices rise and fall in shrieks from the lake, bees buzz. The mountain retains his dignity against the blue sky. I am sheltered by two huge pine trees that provided a wonderful canopy during a late afternoon thunderstorm that blew in. My tent’s rainfly did its work beautifully and the trees took good care of me so that I could be in the storm without getting drenched.


Dreams have been interesting. I had a life review one night. I was with an angelic being and we went through my life with a fine tooth comb. I awoke several times during the night with ahas..so that is what that was about! Each time, I would go back into the review and proceed. It was not easy nor fun but

at the end I felt good about what I had done thus far. I was told that it was necessary to complete before I could meet my beloved. Hmmm…ok then, check that off the list. The next night, I dreamt of experiencing events in this current life differently. I felt the pain of other choices as if they were indeed the ones that I had made. Some alternate reality show, it seems. Met a famous artist who admonished me that it was time to do my art and create infinity symbols! I had just completed a drawing that had a series of infinity symbols between a couple’s hearts and their

chalice of the heart. That is the Creator’s light pouring into the chalice as She/He forms the trinity of their union, asking for Her/His participation in what is created by their love.

Yes, I can feel the art needing expression. Another reason for a place to be, to have space for art making on a bigger scale.


There is energy building for this event next week, an opening of a portal to Shamballa. Many folks are coming in to town and I am excited to be with some old friends and meet others that I have know of from the internet or read their work. I know that I am anchoring peace here and helping to set the stage for the event. It feels like I will meet members of my soul family and that will inform my next step. Maybe I am really Nancy Drew or Miss Marple in a detective novel, following the clues to this mysterious life on planet earth! So, one clue…..head to Shasta, could be for the summer. Check. Find a place to stay……that has not panned out yet but while it is summer, camping suits me just fine. I love sleeping on the ground and having a ceiling of stars to look at during the night. Some things are more of a challenge, like charging my cell phone as I am not driving enough to do it in the car and so need to head into a cafe in town and sit next to an outlet. Same for the computer. I am typing this at my campsite and then need to head into town to get connected to the internet to post it. So…..communication is a bit trickier. I miss reading some of my favorite sites and blog posts but you can’t sit at a cafe as long as I used to be on the internet at night when I have connection. I need to charge up my little shuffle so that I can listen to my meditations and songs. Today I will browse the bookstore for a new novel to entertain me at night.


My son will soon be back with me as will a dear friend who is coming for two weeks. So this alone time is fleeting which makes me savor it more. So off to town for internet, charging electronics, ice for the cooler and a novel. Then the afternoon by the water..oh, yes, need to get some more sunscreen as I got burnt from my time out yesterday. Baby white skin and intense sun….ow! Moving slowly with the gentleness I feel in the air today.

A Matter of Which View You Want to Look At

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I love this picture that is framed by my son’s car window on our recent trip to Colorado. There is some magic that happens when we frame a view, it brings it into focus and can make a more intimate connection. The Rockies were so huge and awe inspiring, by framing this view, I can more easily find a resonance within it. I LOVE choosing how to frame experiences, emotions, and life in this way. I used to have some pretty narrow, dark views but now they are so full of beauty. Anything that is not, is no longer even up for framing…..I shift my attention to a view that I enjoy and bask in it. I have asked to let go of memories, I do not need any. What, even the good ones, you ask? Yes, even those. I trust that there are many more good ones to come. Better in fact than any I have experienced to date! I want more room to decorate with the beauty that gets brighter by the day. The more we notice the beauty, the more there is to see. People’s hearts are the most beautiful of all sights. I cherish those views in my heart.

It is late, fireworks going off in the neighborhood making it difficult to sleep. Just watched this utube video of Steve Rother who channels the “group”, a group of spirits from “Home” or the other side of the veil. I like his work and listen to his monthly channel. Here it is: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PsXBzdoCvKY&feature=share

It spoke to what I have been feeling of late. My son is getting huge downloads of information and is trying to write it down and figure out how to best present it to an audience. Steve’s group is saying, “don’t wait!” The energies have amped up considerably and they are quick, quick! We are getting new hits of ideas and thoughts and he is encouraging us to anchor them into our 3D world in some tangible way. Hence, this blog post late at night…

I can feel this happening. I have felt whiffs of movement come to me, streams that I have followed for the past two years. I am pretty adept at this by now, letting the currents take me where they will. The group is saying that is necessary now as we no longer have time to ponder and plan as that keeps us stuck. We move and then life lines up with our movement. I so like this way of being. It suits me much better even though I once was a master at planning and preparing. I like change. I like quickness. I like newness. I am feeling the magic of this once folks get the hang of it. It is freedom and wow, isn’t that what we all crave?

4th of July is here and we celebrate a freedom that has been mostly illusion. We have lived lives of such routine and intense pressure yet we told ourselves we lived in the land of the free. Now we have the opportunity to truly take a step towards that freedom. We are the creators and are once again awakening to our role. I spend time each day, in a dreamy state where I vision my reality. I love that we will be able to manifest what we need, no more packing and shifting heaps of “stuff”. Just think it there or think it gone. There will be no need to accumulate things as you will know that when a need arises, you can fill it. That will be a freedom that I plan on enjoying! How about seeing an image of a beautiful beach and then thinking ourselves there. Yes, there is so much freedom at hand. I see a world where everyone has enough food, clean water and shelter ……can you imagine how freeing that will be on a deep gut level for all of us? The freedom to discover our note to add to the earth’s tone. Freedom from a working to live, life. Freedom from caring for our things, freedom from the constraints of time. Freedom to create a world that we can hand down to our children and grandchildren with pride. A world where harmony, peace, cooperation, unity and love are the norm. Where we live in the moments and those moments can stretch and contract as we desire. Where “being” is a skill we all have and use for the upliftment of all.

There are so many ways to use our freedom. Think of areas of your life where you want more freedom and begin to imagine that it is yours. Once you set your intention, you will be guided on how to get there…..watch for the signs. Today I saw a vision of Mount Shasta and one of her lakes, shining in a misty light. I saw violet light then surround the scene. This for me, is the mountain’s calling card, saying, “Come, come home to me now.” I finish packing the camping gear tomorrow and then head off. You can be sure that I will be attuned to the next sign on the way.


Being Seen and Seeing Myself for Who I Really Am

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It has been a beautiful day, flowing into the new energies of love that are here for us all to tap into. It has been interesting to observe my world and how I am moving through it. This past week has been a testing period of old energies resurfacing to see if I am ready to let go, once and for all. I found myself thinking of people that had rejected me and wanting to go to them and give them a hug or call them and connect somehow. As I described this to my son, he helped me to see ( sometimes talking to another who you resonate with can bring things to the surface so much more quickly) that those were impulses of the old me. I tried so many times to connect through the heart with folks who chose not to connect in that way. I did it for the sake of the kids or the family or some other obligation. Today I felt such love my courageous heart that would go into hostile environments time and time again.


That time is now over, as in honoring myself, I can choose to reside in energies that support and nourish me. I can be with folks who love me and see me for who I am. I am enjoying being recognized for my part in this grand scheme of things. A friend who is graciously hosting me at present said that I should not leave as “the neighborhood needs a resident mystic.” I loved that! After a lifetime of not fitting in, I have a place. People have come up to me and thanked me for my earth work. Today someone posted on facebook a thank you for some earth grid work that I am not conscious of on this level. Yet when I read the description, which she suggested I sit with and feel, I began to cry as I could feel it in my body that indeed, I had been doing that very work she described. It was humbling and reminded me of how deep is my love for our Mother Earth and all who reside on her.

I am ready to move and live completely in the new energies. Mount Shasta seems to hold this for me as the next step. When I listen to lovely music or go into my dreamy space, I often have visions of my community. I love to see who has shown up and what everyone is up to. I was delighted to see that a couple of folks who have turned from my love in anger, were happily greeting me with such love as I saw myself returning from a trip out to other such communities. (Yes, they will be everywhere!) We were so glad of one another and they knew the truth of my heart and of our love. My heart simply soared at this! I thought of our Mother/Father God and how they must feel when we acknowledge and turn to their love once again. Bliss!

So, I step out of the world in one sense and into the new more fully. I can feel more of my soul family beginning to gather as we chose to live in these new open hearted energies. It is time to gather and be a lighthouse that beams out to the world. The time of holding our candle aloft alone is over. We will gather and lift our flames high, generating much more light as a collective. It is time to bring in the magic and try on our new skills. As a vision keeper; I need nature, a field of resonance with those around me and stillness. I am grateful for Mount Shasta’s call and grateful for the answering echo in my heart that carries me there.























































































New Moon and Eclipse Leaves Me Floating

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What a day! Another solar eclipse and the new moon to set our intentions by. The energies

had been streaming in pretty heavily for the past couple of days for me. A need for long naps and sleep ins. Quiet, interior time. I found myself not wanting to drive or go out into the world much. Today dawned with a softness, blue sky and sun. I awoke from a dream where I made the discovery that my kids and I would love one another’s chosen partners. I was laughing in my dream as my son was saying, ” If they are the right one, we will all love them.” I agreed and knew that it would because each partner would know, love and honor themselves. We will all be whole. What a lovely thought to begin my day!


My friend and I had planned on going up in the mountains for a hike, a couple hour drive away. We connected and both had the same realization that today was not a day to go far. It was a day to stay quiet and close to home. I love when the universe lines up with my feelings! Instead, we went for a walk in the local nature center, taking her crystal bowls and our ceremony things. We went to the American River, scooped some water into the bowls and

began to play them. We set our intention for the water to be

crystalline and purified and tossed it back to the river to travel its swift current out into the waters of the earth. As we were playing the bowls, a whole gaggle (don’t you love that word?) of geese came swimming along. They walked out onto the shore and clustered all around us. They seemed to enjoy the sound of the bowls as much as we did.


I had written out my intentions for this new moon and second half of this year. I burned the paper and we offered tobacco and cornmeal to the earth and the waters. Every time I do ceremony with my friend, I see us in our priestess robes conducting

similar ceremonies. It seems that it would add to the fun to have the pretty outfits as we modern day mystics look pretty drab. I think that our society could use some brightening up in this regard. As we assume our new roles, I like the idea of new costumes. Maybe that is what my friend and I will do with our idea for beautiful clothing for women. As the divine feminine makes her return to the planet, we need the clothing to match.

Here is my offering topped with one of the geese’s feathers.
As we made our way out of the park, we met a woman volunteer, tending the gardens around the nature center building. We stopped and chatted and my friend played her bowl for her. The woman was enchanted and felt that she had been touched by magic. We did also.

The whole day felt magical and soft. I could feel the energies of love permeating the air. I saw a friend for a brief but delightful conversation and hug, joined an hour meditation for the earth in which we connected on the grid with thousands of others, ate a yummy tuna salad that my friend received the idea of during our meditation, (very practical info can come during meditations!) grocery shopped and planned a brunch with a friend, had a delightful conversation with my daughter with news of a new job, saw a hummingbird sitting on her tiny tea cup of a nest, saw young hawks in their nest, found some beautiful black and white feathers from a woodpecker that seems to have become the dinner that mama hawk was carrying to her young, baked chocolate chip cookies and shared a dinner of chard and beets with friends. I feel so blessed!

I believe that love is in the air and it feels grand. People’s hearts are being softened by the love that our Creator, our Galactic brothers and sisters, the ascended masters, the angels and our sun are beaming our way. How privileged we are to witness this transformation.

Walking on the Edge

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I love this picture that I took of two friends who joined me for our play day in the snow. We were getting our Rocky Mountain high! It feels almost surreal which is exactly how life feels to me now. We are walking between worlds and some days this is easier than others. I have been receiving calls from friends and family who are struggling with this transition. They report feeling depressed, weepy, angry, apathetic, sad. A range of feelings that do not seem very pleasant. We are leaving our old way of life where we lived so much of the time, with our hearts tucked away in order to deal with the harshness, busyness and mundaneness of the “work to live” life. We all had our moments of joy and some did better than others in melding their working with their passion. For many that was not the case.


Now we are entering a time where our hearts are coming out of hiding, they want to be seen and felt 24 hours a day. This is causing clearing as all the painful emotions that came up in this life and many others, that have not been fully felt, are now demanding a hearing. They want to be expressed. It may mean that there is a river of tears waiting to flow or a tirade of anger. If you can get in observer mode and simply watch yourself feeling and expressing all that comes up, it lessens the sense of being out of control. It can be frightening to feel so much after years of keeping our hearts under wraps.

The beautiful aspect of this is that each time you fully feel an emotion, it clears the air and literally, you are able to breath easier. There is such a sense of freedom! We are being asked to do this clearing, think of it as your earth work. Mother Earth carries our weight and when we have unexpressed emotions, they are like heavy rocks upon her heart that she then must deal with. As I clear my heart space, I lighten her load and we are freer in our relationship. I am no longer the teenager throwing angry words at her with my unresolved feelings. (Those of you who have raised teenagers know exactly what I mean, the way the words can land like rocks in her heart). I am a mature adult who can enjoy my mother’s company with a newfound sense of delight in her wisdom and beauty! That feels grand, let me tell you.

The new earth energy is streaming in as light and love. As it enters our bodies, all that is not light and love, is pushed to the surface. The love is like a radar that picks up all the shadow substances that we hid, feeling that it was too awful, too shameful to be brought to the light of day. It is time now to embrace every part of who we are. We have been fed a lie that there was anything about us that was not beautiful. I can hear the protests, “Well, that part surely is not pretty, or my God, I stole something…surely that is shameful. Or I purposely took advantage of someone for my own gain.” It matters not what we have done, it is time to love that part of ourselves and let it go. Each of us was doing the very best that we could at the moment. Feel the power of that sentence. Surely you can feel this for those you love as you forgive them lapses in judgment. Now feel that same compassion for yourself. We were as conscious as we could be and acted on what we knew and with the skills that we had at that moment.

That does not mean that we will not desire to make amends. Our hearts open and of course we want to reach out to anyone that we have wronged or hurt in any way. That is part of our beauty……we are love and we want to express that love to all. Our hearts rush to right wrongs and express the love that flows through us.

So, do not fear this in between world space. Before you know it, we will all walk around with our hearts wide open knowing that there is no longer anything to fear. But it happens one heart at a time. Each day, we are being called to play our part. You can know that as you embrace your own beauty and let your heart light shine, you allow our Mother to transition with ease and grace and well being for all. You light up your circle of influence. You create a pathway for others to follow. Each of us, widens that path, cuts through the brambles and turns to encourage our brothers and sisters to come along.

What could be more beautiful? So I watch each day to see what triggers come my way. When I see anything in the outside world that moves me from my peace, I laugh. Yes, here it comes, let’s see what this is. I no longer am concerned if I understand it all, it matters not. I simply allow the emotions to move through me. It is happening much quicker these days, I can sob for 30 seconds (I mean really boo hoo!) and it is done. Believe me this is a change from the hours long sob sessions that came through me when I first began this clearing. Anger can be a flash and it is over. I congratulate myself for all of it. I am so amazing!!

I know that you are so amazing. I am shining your light back at you……it is brilliant and makes my heart sing to see its beauty. I love you. Oh yeah, you are me!! hee hee, how could I not love you?!

Integrating Duality

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This picture is me standing between two halves of a huge split rock in the Rocky Mountains. I viscerally felt how it was time for duality to end. I had placed my body as a bridge between these forces, as so many of us were called to do and be. More on this later…keep reading!


How do I keep up with myself? The changes are coming fast and furious. A couple of days ago, I had the experience of realizing on a new level that I was done. I had completed my assignment of holding the container for my three young adult kids (24, 26 and 27 year old beauties) as well as other family members and loved ones. This happened first with my son, Miles who recently awakened to his own I AM Presence. There was something that triggered me and I broke down, saying over and over, “I am done, I am so done.” He said, “Yes, you are done. It is over. I take over from here on out.” And he was so right, he has the the broad shoulders and the voice for this next period. I could let down. He told me that I get to be in my joy now as an elder. I love that term!! I AM an elder!


Later I was doing a visualization with a friend and we created a vesica pisces between us and watched as our loved ones walked into it. I felt such peace, knowing that it was time to let everyone go. On some level, I had done this months before but this was deeper. My son arrived and told me his dream where he was searching for his girlfriend but obstacles kept appearing in his path. He was given the message: You can no longer “carry water” for anyone. It is time to let go. He is called to let her go with love, knowing that she is on her path, and he on his. They are both showing such courage in this process. We can let go with love and gratitude but let go, we must.

After this letting go, I was practically glued to the couch in my friend’s cottage for two days. Release work is tiring! It took a huge effort to get up and make myself a piece of toast. Truly, I was not sure that I could. Thought it would ease the nausea which it did temporarily but then it was back. On the second day, I did manage to walk the twenty feet across the patio to my friend’s house to do my laundry and then it was back to bed. So….if that level of letting go produced that response…

Today I went for a lovely walk in the rain with a dear friend. We saw a buck with his large rack of antlers staring at us, giving off a beautiful male essence which felt like a gift. Afterwards to alleviate our dampness, we decided to go to a local coffee shop that makes a great chai latte. Yum! It was just the ticket along with a chocolate macaroon. I was telling her about this letting go that had happened and being the astute friend that she is, she asked me to go deeper. She can hold space in such a way that I can discover new layers of myself. I FELT (yes, I feel things with my body) that I had been holding a container for much more than my children and loved ones. I had been a rock, yes a rock, holding things contained within the earth. These things were deep, dark things like trolls, dragons, minerals, gnomes, sexual energies, damp, volcanic, gold and gems, so many heavy energies. I had been holding them in

abeyance on some level until the time was ripe for their emergence. Suddenly, it is time. There is enough love on the planet’s surface to allow the integration of the denser, darker elements. It is time. I was sobbing as I felt these energies move through me like a geyser…….whooosh! I no longer had to be the rock. Quite frankly, I was never comfortable as a rock. I am a flower, I have always been a flower. I could feel my petals begin to quiver with the knowledge that I could bloom once more. How to convey in words the sensations that moved through me. It was as if an elixer of light began to flow through me awakening my cells. My friend sensed more light between my atoms, electrons and cells. Expansion! I can breathe in a whole new way, it is delicious! I can feel my petals wanting to grow and unfurl. I am a lily and soon all will be able to sense my fragrance. I have a future of being many flowers as of course, I am a rose and a gardenia and lilac and and and…….you get the picture. I am a flower.


Now, I am once again snug in the cottage, listening to the rain on the roof and wondering how many days this flower will sleep! It feels that I could sleep for a month. The relief of this assignment being over, checking off the, Be a rock, box! Hallejuah. I made it. There is nothing more for me to do, I am free to play! The young strong ones are here. They will carry the day. We have built the bridge that they will now walk across and carry on to build the new communities of light.

The rain is feeding this body of mine in a new way as flowers need their drinks! I am so grateful to have made it to this time. Watch me bloom.




















Resurfacing After Major Internal Rewiring

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Wow! Has it really been that long since I last posted?? I feel like I have been in a time capsule of sorts. My son and I went the Festival of Enlightenment in Estes Park, Colorado. What a beautiful setting. We were in a natural bowl, surrounded on every side by the beautiful Rocky Mountains. We alternated our time between workshops and drives and hikes in the park. This photo was taken on our trail ridge drive, the highest drive in the USA. We stopped to play in the snow and marvel at the beauty.

The festival lasted a week which seemed way too long and a blink of an eye at the same time. It was an experience in the new energy as the schedule changed daily as the energies shifted. I loved watching the flow of it. It angered some as they wanted things to go as planned. I spoke with a couple of women who were upset that the schedule had changed and a speaker they desired to see was no longer presenting. I suggested that perhaps the new speaker was the one that they really needed to hear after all. They weren’t buying it. It was an experience of allowing and letting go. Trusting that you were in the right place at the right time. There were supposed to be thousands and there were maybe 300 folks. As we arrived and could find no sign of the event, we did begin to wonder what we were doing there. All expectations were tested. A workshop may have only a handful of folks yet it was an opportunity to co-create on a more personal level. At times, being in the mountains was more important than another session. I had been looking forward to the Saturday night dance as I love to dance. But when the time came, my dancing self was not feeling it and instead I went back to the house we were staying at and made a fire. I spent the evening gazing at it and feeling the peace of the mountains around me. My higher self wanted to end the festival on a quiet, inward note and I honored her desires. I will have opportunities to dance again.

Each day was so full, it felt like a month had passed. My son went through a huge transformation and found the male mentor that I had felt was an important reason for his trip.
I discovered that I am a mountain woman. I love them! To see those white capped peaks each day fed something deep in my soul. It has been a time of integration since we returned. Neither my son nor I have a place to return to…he had given up his apartment and job a few weeks before we left and I was returning to my car parked at my friend’s place. We are so fortunate in friends caring for us as we rest.
We are both feeling a desire to be at Mount Shasta for the summer. Shasta is a mountain that sends out a deep call that is difficult to resist. Housing options have not appeared easily as yet though today an option presented itself. I believe in ease and grace and look for a path that opens before me. So, if the mountain wants us there, something will open. For now we have a campsite to begin. We took our camping gear to Colorado and did not camp at all! It all worked out as we were processing so much that it was nice to have the comfort and ease of a bedside lamp, wireless connection and a kitchen. Now I am ready to camp, need the connection to the earth.

It is new to have someone sharing my journey. Life is sweeter in the sharing and to be with my son has been a great pleasure. He was one of the only young adults there, most folks were middle aged like me. He said that he had never experienced so much unconditional love as folks shined their love on him. It was a love fest. That experience of unconditional love allowed an opening to his own heart and higher self. I wish that everyone could be bathed in that love for a week! It is time for us all to be the mirrors for one another and shine that radiant light back. We are all suns, all beautiful lights walking this earth. We are all one and the beauty is so immense. Let’s gift each other with this knowing, that we are God’s beautiful creations, here to shine our light and help one another remember that light.









Opening the Pathway to Yourself

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Traveling with my oldest son to Colorado. We were sharing some of our recent aha’s. My son had watched a movie on netfliks called The Quantum Activist. He was excited how science and spirituality have joined paths. Science, especially quantum physics is proving what the mystics have been saying for thousands of years. In this program, a physicist talks about how in “being” we allow infinite possibilities to present themselves through our imagination. Once we take action and “do” we collapse the field into one “reality”. Therefore, the frenetic “doing” that has been the cultural norm, has kept us locked into one pattern. We have been enslaved by this doing to the point of living very narrow lives. I used to marvel at the way my world opened up when I took a vacation and was able to step out of the matrix for a time. New possibilities presented themselves. Joy and harmony seemed to be within reach.The recommendation was to become be-ers more and do-ers less. Abraham Hicks reinforces this concept with taking the emotional journey first, the imagination set free, then the action journey requires so much less.


A friend shared something that she had heard of Mother Teresa. Supposedly she had a policy with her initiates that for every hour they worked with the poor, they must spend two hours nurturing themselves. This is the idea that we can only give what overflows after we have topped up our own tank. We need time to connect with our Creator and receive Her/His gifts. As we do, we feel the joy of the love and naturally want to share it. But we have been deceived and taught that it is selfish to give to yourself. Selfish to sit and be. We must be productive to be of value. Now if that does not sound like an enslaving belief, I do not know what is! How many years, well 50 actually!, did I believe this lie. I am so grateful to have claimed my freedom and stepped out of this programming.

This photo spoke to me. There are so many obstacles in front of that doorway to our authentic self. Look at the one door open beyond the crane and post. Open yet it is boarded up. We not only have to make it to the open door of ourselves, we often have to dismantle the parts that remain closed. We do this by being! Being in our joy. Sitting and really seeing a flower. Watching the play of light through the leaves. Communing with a tree, a rock. Holding a baby in our arms. Seeing the starlight in our beloved’s eyes. We are gifted with so many opportunities, Mother Nature provides myriad openings.

You may feel that you have no free time to give to this. Yet, if you could see how time spent in your joy radiates so much more light than time spent doing “good” that is not filling your heart with joy. If your heart is not singing in the doing, then it is best to find what makes it sing. Let go of the programming that tells you that this is a way to serve, this is how I can help people. To live your joy is the greatest gift we can give those we love and those we do not know. The impact is wide and deep. And it feels good!!! I love the win win aspect of the Universe. We give to ourselves, and we gift others. We honor ourselves, and we honor others. We love ourselves and we are then able to love others. It all begins with ourselves! We have had it backwards for so long.

A deep breath of gratitude as I begin a new day of adventuring with my son who came in understanding how to “be”.


Finding our Balance

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As I sat at the airport on my return from my East coast visit, I watched as people attempted to find purchase on these stools. The table had plugs for computers and iphones so it attracted users. The problem was that the stools were made for giants, folks at least six foot tall. It was interesting to see how every one’s feet were clawing at the air, trying to find a landing spot. Once they realized that there was none, they resorted to crossing their feet as the closest thing to comfort that they could find. Everyone

did the same thing, no one sat with their feet dangling separately. I thought of the ways we seek balance in our bodies and our lives. These poorly designed stools were forcing folks to find comfort in their own bodies by anchoring through their feet as best they could. It demonstrated to me how intuitively, we seek balance. We seek groundedness and connection with the earth. We are not comfortable hanging in space yet that is exactly what the new energies of this incredible summer, are like. We can no longer rest our feet comfortably on many of our former beliefs, values, ideas, or truths. New ideas are springing forth, as much of the old ways are crumbling around us. Outer security is a thing of the past as we experience weather changes, economic turmoil and unrest around the world.

We are challenged to find a way to perch in these new times. First comes the frantic scrambling as we search for the old base to rest on. Once we discover that it is gone, we look around to see how others are coping. We adopt the folding of the feet as a measure of calm, feeling awkward and uncomfortable but not as panicked. This way will not be sustainable for long but it gets us through to the next.

A giant of a man took the stool in front of me. His feet easily rested on the floor and he radiated calm and stability. I saw that he was a wayshower of sorts as we are to grow and expand in order to be comfortable in these new energies. Our physical vessels may not grow (and then again, they may!) yet our spirits are being called to expand into who we really are. We are being asked to allow our I AM presence to come fully into this body and take the reins. I invite mine, dear Sophia, to sit in the driver’s seat of my heart each day. I speak with my ego, Henry and remind him that he has retired and may rest in the back seat. He occasionally does the typical backseat driver bit and calls out directions but Sophia and I smile and proceed. We gently remind him that he is no longer in charge and should sit back and enjoy the scenery. He has earned his retirement and we are grateful to him for getting us this far on the journey.
So, it is a time of finding a sense of comfortableness within the changing world around us. Being ok with the unknown. Moving to embrace the unknown and trusting that new ways of balance are being discovered.

This is a Japanese garden that I visited. Such a sense of peace prevailed as I took in the scenery. Balance was evident as the carefully planned landscape enfolded me in a quiet embrace. All the elements in harmony, colors, textures, water, earth, and sky. Manmade structures blended in with the whole.

Today I seek to blend my body. my mind, my heart and soul and sing that note of harmony. I add in the structures of my life and know that beauty prevails. I am filled with gratitude to have moved beyond the leg scrambling for purchase stage. I expand into my being and discover that I can rest my feet firmly on the ground for the moment. And the moment is all that there is.